Baby Daddy

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Kian Lawley

"I have another kid." I choked out fighting back the tears in my eyes.

"Oh fuck." Ethan murmured under his breath.

I took a deep, loud, gulp, and nodded not knowing what else to say.

"By who?"

I hesitated to tell for a minute but soon spoke up, "Andrea."

Everyone gasped loudly like shocked teenage girls who just heard the latest gossip.

"Hold the fuck up." Ethan said standing up and putting on a very serious face, "Details."

I closed my eyes and quickly wiped a tear away before it could even fall down my cheek and looked up putting on a tough face for the guys, but they knew I wasn't very tough at all right now.

"2 years ago. Before we broke up, Andrea was pregnant, and she didn't tell me. She told me she was going on a 9 month cruise with her family but.. Turns out she just- went to stay with her cousin in Florida for a while. She came back after 9 months and she told me. She told me that she was pregnant.. Then she told me that she gave the baby away." I said, hearing my voice crack towards the end and my eyes started to turn misty but I can't cry, not in front of them. I sucked it up and continued my story, "I was devastated. I was angry. I couldn't understand why she would do that, without even telling me." I paused feeling my heart begin to break piece by piece remembering this day, "She told me that she didn't want the baby to grow up with- with me as a father." Then I just lost it. I put my hand over my face and started letting out muffled cries, feeling embarrassed and weak for what I was doing.

I felt one of them start patting my back in a comforting way. I stopped crying and looked back up at them, "Fuck." I groaned fixing myself up, "She said I wasn't fit out to be a father and that I was not in a good place to take care of a child, and that I wasn't mature enough or responsible or caring or fit out in any way! And that I couldn't take care of a baby until I could take care of myself!" I said beginning to go from sad, to angry, mad, furious, "She said that she could not raise a child with me because the child would be soooo fucked up and that I wouldn't be an exemplary father figure and that I wouldn't be someone they could look up to! She didn't think I was worth looking up to! She was embarrassed to have a child by me! She said she didn't want to raise it alone, so she gave it up, without having any second thoughts. She just gave it up. Because to her, giving it up to a complete stranger was better than keeping it. With me."

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Andrea Russet

I heard a knock on my door and was surprised because I wasn't expecting anybody. I got up from the couch and went to answer the door. Once I opened it up I saw Jc with his hands in his pockets.

"Jc? Hi what are you doing here-"

"I needed to say something." Jc said shaking his leg a little bit impatiently.

"What's wrong? Do you wanna come in?-"

"I think it'd be best if I stayed out here." He said with a bit of tenseness in his voice.

"Jc what's up?" I said beginning to get nervous.

"You kept Kians child away from him for 2 years." He blurt. I felt my heart stop, "What?"

"Kian told me. He told all of us. Every single detail- he told us what you said to him! Why would you say that to him!" He yelled startling me a bit.

"You know better than anyone that Kian was not in a good place at the time." I said defending myself.

"You kept, his own child from him Andrea! I don't care if he was shooting people for a living you don't keep a mans child from him and then give it away without even asking him! You don't know what goes on his head! You don't know what he was going through Andrea! You took his son from him. You took his little boy. You took away his family. You took away everything. You are the one that fucked him up! All these year I thought he fucked hisself up but it was you! You ripped out his heart and acted like it was nothing! His son is 2 years old, and he doesn't even know his dad. How the fuck do you live with yourself knowing that you destroyed 2 boys lives! Because I would hate myself! I would hate myself so fucking much!" Jc yelled with so much anger, "And not only did you take away his son, but you made him feel terrible about him self. You made him feel worthless. How are you smiling everyday knowing you broke his heart! And destroyed his pride! You ruined him! YOU RUINED HIM!"

"STOP YELLING AT ME!" I cried letting my tears fall, "IM SORRY! IM SORRY OKAY! I-I didn't know what else to do! I didn't think this would work out, Kian and I weren't the happiest couple and I was holding onto some anger from when he cheated on me and when I told him about the baby I blew up with anger and frustration and I said some things that may or may not have been true! But I don't want to be shamed for it! Who the fuck do you think you are?! Knocking on my door, screaming at me, not even considering how I might have felt about the situation! I care too Jc! Giving up the baby gave a lot of thought I didn't just push it out of my fucking vagina and hand it to the doctor like 'here take my baby.' I cried when I held him! I cried because I knew I couldn't keep him ! Because it wouldn't be right to keep him! I was doing what was right for him! All I ever wanted from Kian, was a family. But not every story has a happy ending."

Jc shook his head, "I'm not gonna feel sorry for you. You're one of my best friends.. But Kian IS my best friend. And because of you, he's fucked up. So fucking what?! He cheated! OH BOO HOO. That's not a reason to take his son away."

I wiped my tears and stared at Jc with hatred, "Get the fuck away from my house."

He stared at me for a minute and the shrugged, "Gladly."

After I saw Jc heading to his car I closed the door tightly and slid my back down it feeling broken. I stared at the ceiling for a while and then started bawling my eyes out, shaking and hugging my knees, letting myself fall apart on this hard wood floor.

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Well that happened.