Her silver lining(editing)(on hold)

Girls day out

Jay Pov
So lately I've had to deal with a bunch of bullshit, from my now ex-boyfriend telling me he's gay or bisexual or whatever, to still trying to understand my fucking feelings for that dumbass. There are all these gorgeous girls in the world and I can't compare from their eyes to the bodies to their great hair I feel like an average girl with no type of beauty or talent. I feel lost in a world based on certain standards that I don't meet. I try hard to make my appearance and image look better to be appealing to one's eye but it never works. I'm always by myself and secluded but I'm by myself to figure out what's wrong. How can I be confident and try to flaunt it when I can't even look the guy I like straight in the eye. And Now at this point in my life, I would rather scream, eat and watch Netflix, but unfortunately, that's not gonna happen today due to the fact that India and Eris are on the way. They thought it's was a good idea to get me out of my comfortable bed and take me away from my wonderful Sam and Dean.

"Jaybae are you ready"
"Hell no you stupid ass, why can't I just stay here and watch Netflix?" I jump on my bed and hide underneath my covers.
" Because we are taking our asses out and getting cute so suck the shit up," India said as she went to closet looking for something for me to wear. I basically pouted the entire time as they casually decided on the outfit I was gonna wear out, and completely ignored the faces I was making at them.

"Why are y'all ignoring my faces," I said as I reached over to grab my remote from the end of my bed and right before I could grab, stupid hoe Eris snatched it and threw it in the hall. I looked at her like she lost her damn mind but she just smiled at me, threw me black pants, a burgundy shirt, black and gold wedges, and gold jewelry.
"Get yo ass up, get in the shower and get dressed"
"Fine but I'm taking my damn time"
"Whatever"

30 minutes later
"How do I look?" They both just looked at me and smiled, which I knew meant I looked good.
"Damn bae I didn't know you were gonna be this good looking" Eris said winking at me. I laughed and shook my head at her comment, I swear she so gay sometimes, I thought as I stared at myself in the mirror. She was right I did look good, and for once I feel really confident. I started parting my hair and twisting it into a cute style, I put on my big gold hoops and matching necklace. I did my make-up and finished my outfit off with my mocha lipstick.

I look at the girls through the mirror to see them both on their phones on Snapchat as usual. Looking at them now, I'm surprised we've lasted so long when we all first became friends the other two barely like each other now we are all about to go out on our monthly date night. "Alright bitches, let's go, I'm hungry I look cute and these heels are only gonna last an hour for me." They both looked and laugh as we grabbed our purses and headed downstairs to India's car.

Applebee's
"Hi welcome to Applebee's how many," said the waiter right as we walked in. We told him how many and sat down.
"Now that we are here Eris what's going on with you and my boo Able," I asked while sipping my drink. She started smiling really wide and right when she was about to spill the details Andrew walked up to our table. He looked really good like I wanna throw him on the table good but I didn't want him to see that.

"Hey, what y'all doing here?" India looked at me I guess to see if she should answer and I nodded my head yes. "Well if you must know it's a girls night out and you being here is ruining it so if you can just, you know leave that would be great," she said while batting her eyelashes then grabbing her phone, leaving him with a dumb look on his face. I started to choke on my drink and covered my mouth to keep from laughing and spitting my lemonade out. " I just want to talk to Jay for a minute then I let you girls go." They both looked at me to see if I wanted to go and reluctantly I got up and went with him outside.

"What do you want Drew," I asked looking everywhere but his eyes. "Well Zay's birthday is coming up and I just wanted to know if you are gonna still help me plan it?" Without even noticing he managed to pull me into him. A million thoughts went through my head making me even more confused. I finally dared myself to look into his eyes to see them staring directly at me. "Yes I'm still helping but I can't do this anymore Andrew," I said pushing him off of me. Before he could say anything I finished what I was saying. "I can't do you touching me, kissing me, telling me to fuck off out of nowhere then acting like you miss me or something. I'm tired of you playing with my feelings, it's either you want me or you don't. This is not fucking boxing, you don't get to beat me up then tap gloves at the end when it's over like nothing happen. For now on we are only working on the project and I'll finish helping with my baby's birthday other than that leave me alone for now, I just can't take  you anymore and I'm not about to drive myself crazy over you" with that I went back and joined my girls.

They stared at me as I sat down like I had something on my face. "What's wrong, is there something on me?" I asked while checking my appearance on my phone. "No we just checking to make sure you're okay and we don't have to beat ass," Eris said with India in agreement. "Ahh I love y'all, let's just order our food a bitch hungry." I don't know what's happening in my life but I do know is that I'm about to have fun with my girls tonight.

Finally, I'm home I thought to myself as I kicked off these heels and stripped out of my clothes. I considered removing my makeup but I knew I really didn't have the energy for it, I barely had the energy to put my food in the fridge which I probably should have done before I came upstairs to my room but oh well. As I slowly started to drift off to sleep my phone rang and several text messages popped up mostly from Andrew. Instead of checking to see what they said I turned off my phone completely and closed my eyes.