INTROSPECTIVE

Chapter 9

Chests pressed so close together they could feel each other's heartbeats through their clothes.Fingers tugging on red dreadlocks.Lips smashed onto each other for so long one would think that their lips were mashed into one.Only coming up for sweet air momentarily before they want back to tongue duelling. That was always how it was when Eva and Guy were together.They couldn't keep their hands off each other.

Her mouth always had something to occupy itself with when he was around and that wasn't to form words.No, she could barely form a corrigible phrase let alone a sentence,except for a few monosyllabic phrases that consisted only of vowel sounds. Kissing him was addictive.She enjoyed playing with that magnetic  tongue ring of his. The sensation of his warm mouth and the cold metallic ring together,did things to her.She had never been kissed like that.But then again she had never been kissed before. Guy was Eva's first in every sense of the word; first and only.

And Eva felt there was never a more worthy guy-she smiled at the pun, to have  been her first.They had chemistry like no other.Her body seemed to respond of its own accord when he was in the vicinity.But it wasn't just physical.It went beyond that.Eva felt that they had a connection on another level.A much higher level that everyone else just didn't get and that was why,she had given herself to him entirely.

"Chocolate,"he said as he traced her upper lip with his thumb making her breath hitch ,"strawberry."he said as he repeated the same sweet torturous action with her lower lip.

"Your lips will be the death of me one day,"he uttered breathlessly before they embarked on yet another kissing session.

What Eva didn't know was that one day,what he said may have just come true.

She shook her head,dismissing thoughts of Guy.She was in front of her door.The sweet incense of rosemary signifying that her mother was home. She took a deep breath before she opened the door to the three bedroomed apartment that she shared with her mother. It smelt like home but it no longer felt like home.

Eva stalked into the kitchen finding her mother bent over vegetable stew made out of some traditional vegetables that Eva no longer cared to remember the names of.

"Food will be ready in a minute. Get ready to eat."

Eva flinched at the dead tone her mother regarded her with.But after what she had put her mother through when she had to clean up the mess that had resulted of Eva's and Guy's relationship, the relationship between mother and daughter had cooled off.No more big wet kisses on the cheek from her mother asking her how her day was.No more movie nights,no more kisses,no more hugs and no more warm smiles.

Eva left the kitchen to go get ready.She understood her mother's reaction.She had been a huge disappointment to her.It was almost like she had repeated her mother's life's mistake:getting involved with a man who ended up forsaking you.Eva was a result of that mistake.Though her mother always told her getting her was not the mistake it was with whom that was.

Her mother had been a fresh green first year student when she met Eva's father.She had received a scholarship to go study engineering in Germany. Having been in a girl's boarding school for six years through high school and living a pretty shielded life at home as well, she had hardly interacted with boys.But she always felt that she could be immune to their advances.

That's until she met Eva's father,a tall Ugandan student with a charming smile. He was persistent with his advances until she felt overwhelmed and finally susceptible to them.She kept on asking herself, What does this man see in me? Next thing she knew she was pregnant with his child and he denied it being his.She later discovered that he preyed on young naïve  international students like her and she probably wasn't the first girl carrying his child.So that's what he saw in me,she thought with regret.