Saving Lilly Orchid

Confessions

Chapter 9
~Confessions~

Lilly's Pov

 

      Waking up after passing out was just horrible, my throat hurt. My whole entire mouth was dry it was just not pleasing at all. I woke up in my room, my blinds were closed and my room was dark. I picked up my phone and the clock read eleven-fourty seven. I move the cover that was covering half of my body and realized someone changed my clothes. I get up out of my bed and slip my footies on. I walk down the steps and my house was sparkling. Okay I'm just kidding but that was the idea.

     I head into my kitchen to find that there was still two bottles of GreenApple Ciroc left on my counter. I grab a Coffee mug and pour the  alcohol in my mug. I set down on my bar stool and drank from my hello kitty mug. I didn't realize there was anyone here until I heard laughing coming from the living room. For a minute I wanted to go in there and just sit, but I felt like I would make everyone uncomfortable.

So I stayed with my bottles of Green. Twenty minutes had passed and I downed three mugs of my Green. That's when someone walked in to the kitchen. I didn't know exactly who because my head was down, I didn't feel like looking.

   "Orchid you know I can see you?" Tristen said to me, it wasn't like I was trying hide. Maybe he can still see my face. I lift my head up and start to smile just a tad bit.

"Ya know I was trying to stay away from people."

                   "Well why would you do that? Orchid I may not know what you are going trough but the best way to get over it is to be with someone who make you happy."

"Tristen how am I going to ever get trough this, I she no one. You don't know what it's like to have any family or anyone on your side."

"Blossom you are right I don't know what it is like but I know this you have a sister who loves you. You have bestfriend to always be there for you. You have the gang to comfort you and help with needs. Last but not least you have me your other half."

"Tristen I'm scared, I'm so afraid that everything will just fall apart. When I realized what was happening it was like my body just stopped. What is everyone going to think of me now"

He looked me in my eyes and I could tell he didn't have a answer for me. All that was there was just emotion on his face. I don't know what emotion but he was feeling it hard.  I completely did not notice I was crying until Tristen lifted his hand to my face and whipped a tear away. He pulled me to his chest and I started to sob. I mean like it is just so bad feeling like it is my fault.

  I must have been lous because everyone of the people who stayed here in my house came into the kitchen. I sobbed even harder knowing that they were seeing me break down like this. I clutched on to Tristen like my life would end if I let go. He held me like his life depended on it. I closed my eyes and he said soothing words in my ear. By the time I stopped crying everyone had gone, I assumed they went home. 

        I looked up from Tristen and he was wide awake, I looked at him and he just stared down at me." Thanks Tristen, I think you should head home your parents are probably worried about you."

          "My parents will ne fine, but Orchid I need you to know that I will never leave your side again. I promise nothing will happen ever again, if you tell me to go away I will. I will do as you say but blossoms one thing I know that won't change is that I am bound to you.  Every time you smile my heart races.Every time you laugh, I want to do something to make you laugh again."

"I don't know what to say...."

       I couldn't finish my sentence because he kissed me. I was so stunned for a minute and then kissed him back. I guess in away he was waiting for an entrance because he kept bitting my lips. He picked me up and walked up the stairs. Mind you, we are still kissing. He pushed the door opened and we landed on my bed. We kept in kissing the motions that were spreading troughe were hunger, madness, confusion and happiness.

He stopped kissing me and moved on to my keck he started to leave kisses behind. Then that's when he found my soft spot.  I started to moan very,very loud. I gripped on to his hair and was pulling on his shirt. I started to get wet in my area. That is the first time ever that it has happened.

It was all pleasure and I loved it. His hands were roaming and then he stopped completely. I opened my eyes to have him staring at me. "Please keep going."

He shook his head no at me and got up off the bed. I sit up and turn on my lamp, I don't know did I do something wrong.

"What's wrong" I asked him, he was looking away from me."I can't do this, I can't have sex with you not like this."

I took in a breath and breathed it out."Your not going to have sex with me because of what hapened?"

"No I just can't do it, not like this we are not even together. I don't want to hurt you or Make you think we are an item or something."

"Where is this coming from you told me you are bound to me, nowyoy don't want it to seem like we are an item."

He looked at me and the looked away, he opened the door to my room and walked away. How could he say he would not leave my side but leave when I need him to he most
It's not even about having sex,something totally different. When will I ever do the right things.

A/N: Hey guys so alot has happened trough out the time but I wanted to say thank you for sticking with me and through with the book. I know the updated are slow and the chaptesrs are short but I am so tired. Any who I want to say congratulations to us because we made it to 1k. That is amazeballs. Thank you for reading this chapter. Comment what you think. Love all of you...