THREE THINGS I SHOULD'VE TOLD YOU
by JoshLozada
Song Choice: Secret Love Song
Genre: Romance
Sub-genre: Pyschological
Dear Karlo,
What will we become at the age of thirty? That is always a rhetorical question of mine ever since we met and decided to be in a relationship. Will we still be together that time? Will we still say 'I love you' at each other. Well, that's a question that will never have the chance to be answered.
If there are three things that I would like to tell you, it will be simple. I'll start off with a 'thank you' for everything you've done. I'll thank you for all the times that we made each other feel special. I'll give thanks for the food we shared on the same table. I'll forever be grateful of actually having the chance to meet you, to know you, to love, to be yours.
Remember the time when we were in college and there were some of our classmates who were bullying me? That's when we first had a interaction. Cliché as it may sound but we were like heaven and earth. You're so near, yet so far. I never imagined that we'll talk way back then.
You were my knight in shining armor that day. You drove of the lunatics whose hobby was pestering and making fun of me. We talked everyday after that. I get the chance to break through your walls and know the real Karlo behind that tough and sturdy facade of yours. For that and many more, thank you.
Second thing I'll tell you after thanking you for all the stuffs is probably a 'sorry'. I'll apologize that you'll have to deal with my random shits most of the time. Sorry for being insensitive. Sorry for being immature. Sorry for not trusting you. Please forgive me so I can actually forgive myself by now. Forgive me for the times that you wanted to fight for us but I chose to give up. Sorry because I know that this world won't accept me... us.
I know it's a hard pill for the both of us to swallow but even though we pray our hearts out or cry our eyes out the world will be its usual judgmental self. Is it wrong to actually fall in love and stay in love? Love is love, I know. But if love is love, why can't we be together? Why can't they accept us? Can't they just mind their own businesses and stop meddling with ours.
But as much as I love you, I don't want to turn this letter to a rant. So I'll just apologize in behalf of the world for keeping us apart.
Lastly, of course. I'd like to say goodbye.
Along with that good bye are my one-syllable questions for you that will never be answered. Why. Why would you leave? Can't you stay? Don't you love me? You said you love me. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. The. Fuck. Would. You. Leave. Me. Those are the freaking questions that kept me up until midnight. You will always be part of my two a.m. thoughts. You'll always be a part of my world. Our world.
I just don't get the point? Why would someone like you leave the face of the earth this early? You said you'll stay with me forever. You said that we will be together forever. So forever means a year and a half, now? Don't play jokes on me.
Could you possibly imagine the pain I'm going through right now? You left me. You left me. You left us. You left the world and all the people that loves you.
Before, I would always sing you a song. The song which deeply expresses our unspoken questions. The questions that kept on lingering in our minds every time we'll see two people who can freely show their love for each other. "Why can't you hold me in the street, why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?" says that song. I'm a public displayer of affection, I know that you are perfectly aware of that. So whenever we see them we just sing the latter part of the song, "I wish that we could be like, 'cause I'm yours.". But we can't be like them.
You know how much I love you and how much I'll miss you. You will forever be in my heart, mind, body and soul. Your words are engraved on my mind, those words will be my inspiration to live. Your face will remain on my mind, it will serve as a reminder for me to always smile even though things get hard.
I guess this is goodbye. I hope this letter will go up there in heaven. Do they have some kind of a gmail or an email in heaven? It's tiring to write letters to you by hand. Nah, just kidding.
How are you up there? I hope everything's fine there at heaven. Things here our rough but I know I'll survive.
I'll continue to live. For you and for me. Thank you. Sorry. Goodbye... I love you.
Will Forever Love You,
Albert
