Leila started ranting as soon as she had closed to door to Tom's trailer. He didn't get a chance to say anything, she just started talking, so he sat back on the couch and looked at her with wide eyes.
"Okay, so I'm going to tell you this because I told someone and it felt really great, a getting it off of my chest kind of great. I told Shawn and he told me to tell you and at first I wasn't going to because this will most likely ruin everything so I'm sorry in advance.
"I love you, Tommy. I love love you, like Dean loves Cas and Alec loves Magnus. I love you like Bucky loves Steve and how Major loves Liv. But I know, fuck, I know. I know that I'm not even close to good enough for you, I'm a fucking mess. I don't remember when I last had an adult conversation, and I have been watching cartoons a lot lately.
"I'm mean, I'm bitchy and cranky and grumpy. I'm not nice, or generous. I have literally nothing special to offer. I don't know if I'm good at sex becase I haven't had sex with anyone since I lost my virginity, and I have no idea if I'm a good kisser. Instead of talking about my feelings when I'm mad or sad, I just shut down and stop functioning.
"But I love you, Tom. I love you more than anything, and I want to change that but I can't. I can't, and I want to be sorry for that, but I can't do that either."
When Leila had finished her rant or delcaration of love or whatever you want to call it, she was out of breath and couldn't really look Tom in the eye. But that wasn't the worst part, not even close to it.
The worst part was that Tom didn't say anything, and that he let her storm out of his trailer after waiting for him to say anything for almost five minutes.
"Demon spawn, what's wrong?" Sebastian was just coming back from a coffee run when he ran into the heartbroken girl. She looked up at him for a few seconds before she embraced him and buried her face in her chest, then the tears started running down her cheeks with no sign of stopping.
"I ruined everything, Satan," Leila got out between sobs, and all he could do was hug her back.
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ROMAN HOLIDAY || TOM HOLLAND
Fanfiction"I remember the fear in his eyes the first time we snuck into the city pool, it was awesome." "Shut up, Leila." In which castmates Tom Holland and Leila Maxwell have known each other since they were in diapers, but they had never been more t...
