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by -tythegreat

by -tythegreat

Jc.

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We've been sitting in this room for a few minutes without talking and I was getting tired of the silence. No , I don't like him and he doesn't like me but the sooner that we talk is the sooner he can get out of here and that's what we both want . I'm pretty sure of that.

''Kian , I know that you wanna go home so let's just apologize okay?''

''Actually I think I like it here.'' he smiled as he got up to look around my room. I was keeping my eye on him just because I didn't trust him well enough and now he's being nice? This is not the Kian that I know and It scares me to be honest , I didn't think the Devil's kid could be so nice.

''Kian , I'm sorry for attacking you. I shouldn't have gotten mad because your opinion is your opinion and I was wrong.'' I admitted.

''I'm sorry too , I should have kept my homophobic comments to myself.'' he apologized.

He picked up my notebook and I quickly took it out of his hands. I have written so many mean things and sexual things about him in this note book and he definitely does not need to see any of those pages.

''What are you trying to hide?'' he asked.

''something that could hurt your feelings so let's just let it go.'' I shoved it inside of back pack and threw it in my closet. It's crazy how you can hate someone but you can love them at the same time. I think I like him but his personality makes me hate him and that's why I'm so confused on what I want and how I feel towards him. I know If I do start liking him then my friends would kill me and I would probably have to go against them with this project. Speaking of this project I might as well use this time to try to change his mind.

''Kian , why do YOU think sexuality is a choice?'' I stood in front of him waiting for an answer. I wonder what he's gonna say. Let me guess. ''You Decide If You Want To Sleep With THIS GENDER.'' That tired ass excuse is not enough to convince anyone what he's trying to prove.

''I just think that people have the choice of dating someone ok? I mean you probably can't control your feelings but you can decide to act on them .'' his voice got softer and he sounded a bit sad.

''People say they love you and they just hurt you so that's why it's a choice ok?'' he held his head down and started playing with his fingers. Trying to avoid eye contact will not work with me , he's definitely hurting right now.

''Kian , did an ex-boyfriend break your heart?'' I might as well just ask.

''WHAT? I'm not gay.''

''but Kian maybe..''

''NO , there's no maybe ok? I AM NOT GAY.'' he quickly turned away from me.

''Kian , maybe your bisexual and maybe.''

''NO , I don't like a guy ok?'' He still tried to defend himself.

''I never said that you did.'' I sighed and turned him around.

''There is nothing wrong with being attracted to your own gender , love is love and it is not a choice and I understand that you got hurt but you can't just let that break you so that you'll hate your own kind and believe it or not but you can be cool when you wanna be.''

He smiled and so did I. I can't believe we just had a damn moment!!