The Sexuality Project.➵ j.c.k.l. (Book 1)

25.

Jc.

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Everyone sat in the classroom in total silence. Everyone wasn't in the mood to do any debating and arguing and I'm definitely not in the mood to fight with anybody about something that I believe in anymore. We all have different opinions so why should I try to change their minds? But I do wanna know why Kian hasn't answered any of my phone calls , I've been calling him all morning and he keeps sending me to voicemail. 

I assumed that he was grieving but he's sitting over there in his seat on his phone so I know that he saw his calls from me , he's been avoiding me and I don't know why , omfg what if he thinks her death is my fault too? I can't take everyone being mad at me for something that I couldn't control and on top of that my friends are still mad at me and now this is just adding shit to the fire and making it bigger.

''I know that you guys are grieving and you're going through a tough time so today we're not gonna do anything , I'm just gonna let you guys take out your phones or something , I'm so sorry for your loss'' 

Good because I don't wanna have a debate today , I'm over this project.

'I decided to text Kian's phone. 

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*messages*

Jc: Kian , why are you ignoring me?

Kian: just leave me alone okay?

Jc: why what did I do ?

Kian: You're FAKE , I trusted you and I thought we were friends but you were just out to hurt me.

I have no idea what he's talking about , what did I do or what did I say that made him think that?

''WHAT DID I DO?'' 

''FUCK YOU JC.'' 

I tried to write him back but he refused to answer it.

he shoved his earphones into his ear and started listening to music.

The same question kept going off in my head.

WHAT DID I DO? I have no idea what I did to make him mad and right now is not the time to catch an unreasonable attitude with me.

I got up and walked over to him and I pulled the earphones out of his ear.

''WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?'' He stood up and shoved me.

''WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO YOU?'' I shouted.

Everyone was looking at us but I didn't care anymore , I wanna know what he's doing this shit for.

''JC I SAID LEAVE ME TF ALONE.'' he tried to walk out but I pushed him back.

''I beat your ass once and I can happily do it again IF YOU DON'T TALK TO ME.''

''YOU PRETENDED TO BE MY FRIEND WHEN IN REALITY YOU JUST WANTED TO USE ME , YOU & YOUR FUCKING FRIENDS WERE GONNA EXPOSE ME. YES , I SAW THE VIDEO IN YOUR PHONE.. IS THAT WHY YOU BECAME MY FRIEND?  DID YOU WANNA HURT ME THAT BAD? WELL GUESS WHAT CONGRATULATIONS YOU DID IT.'' He stormed out of the classroom.

''THAT'S NOT WHAT I WAS GONNA DO , I FORGOT ALL ABOUT THAT VIDEO OKAY?'' I ran out after him.

''kian ,I was only gonna threaten you with it , I was never gonna use it.'' I was telling the truth.

''IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER? YOU STILL INVADED MY PRIVACY , MY BUSINESS WAS NOT MEANT FOR YOUR DAMN CAMERA.''

''YOU'RE THE ONE WHO DID IT IN A PUBLIC RESTAURANT , WHERE IT WAS LOUD ENOUGH FOR ANYBODY TO HEAR IT.''  I told the truth once again.

''FUCK YOU JC.'' he flipped me off and turned the corner.

''YOU'RE MY ONLY FRIEND RIGHT NOW PLEASE COME BACK.'' I begged him.