The Sexuality Project.➵ j.c.k.l. (Book 1)

27.

Sam.

I feel extremely horrible for putting my hands on Andrea and even though she had her moments of being a bad person I still shouldn't have put my hands on a female so I was wrong for that and I wish that I could apologize to her. I didn't tell everyone that she called me but I refused to answer any of her calls yesterday and now I'm kind of feeling more worse.  I can't really blame myself for that because she has been mean to me for a year so I thought she was calling me to cuss me out or something and I didn't have time for that and also I kind of beat her ass so I also thought that she was calling me to set me up but I guess that wasn't the case at all.

I decided to come home early because I needed to tell my parents something. I'm afraid that I could be the next one dead because I've kind of had relations with one person but I still didn't use protection so I have to catch this early but that's If I do have something then I can  get rid of it.

''mom & dad I need to talk to you.'' I walked into the kitchen and sat in front of them. I don't want to tell them that their only son may have a disease but I would rather have them know what's ahead instead of having them think that It's something worse..I don't know what could be worse but anyways.

''What's Wrong?'' They both looked up at me .

''I need to get checked .''

''do you really need a check up?'' my father laughed.

''Yes , I've been sexually active...unprotected.'' I whispered the last part but they still heard it.

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Jc.

I checked my phone to see if the video was on there because I was gonna delete it but it was already deleted so I'm guessing that he saw it and deleted it . I honestly forgot all about that video and I was never gonna use it and the only reason I even recorded it was because he was being a jerk to me and I thought that since he was being mean & cruel then maybe I should do the same things that he would do but I was wrong so I see why he's pissed off at me but I wouldn't pretend to like someone just so that I could expose them , I would have been did that If I wanted too. I don't know what to do or who to go to , I can't talk to my sister because she's gone to her friends house for a couple of days and I don't wanna have a conversation like this over the phone and I can't talk to my mother because she would say that I was wrong too and I don't need her judgement.