Double Vision

the wedding plans

So Jamie and I decided to sit down and start talking about the wedding this evening over dinner. He said he wants me to have what ever I want but its just as much my wedding as it is his. So I have to get him to help me to.
"Jamie what color do you want?" I ask looking at a bridal magazine.
"I dont know what do you want? "He says smiling at me.
"Are you being forreal? I need your help we have been at this for 3 hours and we have nothing. I am getting so stressed." I say running my hands through my hair.
"Baby you know this is not my thing I am trying." He says putting the dishes in the sink. As he walks over towards me I get up and throw the book down. "I cant do this no more im to stressed I need space." I go into our room and lock the door. I lay in bed crying my eyes out.
Before I know it its 1 am. Wow why hasnt he even tried to come talk to me and see if im ok? I walk down stairs all the lights are out and Jamie is no where to be found. I go to the garage and his car is gone. Did he really just leave me here and not tell me? I grab my phone and try to call him it just rings and goes to voicemail, I tell him to call me. I got back into this big bed and try to go to sleep but I cant since Jamie is not here.
The next morning I find Jamie passed out on the couch. He smells of alcohol. "Jamie go get a shower you smell."
"Why do care you said you can't do this no more. He says slurring.
"Really? I said I could not do the wedding planning no more not us." I begin to cry and run out the room. On the way up stairs I trip and fell landing on my side and my arm. It hurts so much to move.
"Jamie jamie please im hurt." I yell.
"Oh my gosh Kae are you ok? Can you get up baby? "
"No I can't please help me."
"911 what he emergency? "The lady says.
"My fiancé has fell and she is pregnant, she cant move.
"Ok sir an ambulance is on its way ok?"
"Thanks you. He hangs up. Kae I am so sorry if it wasn't for me you wouldn't be hurt. Baby im sorry. " he is crying and im crying. We start hearing the sirens. Jamie goes outside to meet them and let them in. They check my vitals and get me loaded3d on the cot and wheel me to the ambulance. Jamie follows behind to the hospital.
When we get there they put me in a room and start looking me over. The doctor says I need an ultra sound and some xrays. As they xrays are down im starting to worry. I havent felt my baby move. The doctors come in tell me my shoulder has a tear in the rotator cuff they needs repaired and will need surgery but they need to check my baby girl first. As they are getting me prepared Jamie is sitting here a nervous wreck crying over it all. They hook me up and take a look.
"Miss lovins we have to do an emergency c section your baby girl is in distress and needs to ne delivered or she could die. Mr. Doran if you go with the nurse you can get ready to meet your baby girl." Omg I lose it im balling my eyes out I dont know what to say or what to do but cry.