message // sidemen + minizerk ff

f [6.26]

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• z: simon
• z: heyyyyy simmoooonnn

• si: weren't you the one who was against talking to me the first few days

• z: yeah but I'm just so bored

• si: am i something just to entertain you now ;)
• si: because we can work something out haha

• z: mm no thanks
• z: aren't you straight anyways

• si: i said i think
• si: oh z i did some research last night. that's probably why i didn't respond

• z: what did you research?

• si: i looked up everything there is to sexualities and genders and that whole shabang

• z: how cute

• si: yeah and now that i know all these tings i'm sort of questioning myself now
• si: but i have a girlfriend so i shouldn't be

• z: you're not single?

• si: sorry to disappoint you if i did ;)

• z: no it's okay. but I'm proud of you that you took the time to do all that studying. :')

• si: idk i was super interested and decided that i should expand my teeny tiny brain

• z: true
• z: so what's ya girlfriend like

• si: oh
• si: well...

• z: well?

• si: she's okay

• z: that's it?
• z: just okay?
• z: aren't you supposed to like, I don't know, love her lots and lots?

• si: i do. i really do love her a lot
• si: idk
• si: but she's super gorgeous. she's got the best personality and the most beautiful eyes. they're pale green. it's so easy to get lost in them and a lot of times i do. her hair is so soft. and her body is so perfect. she tells me all the time how imperfect she looks and what she could do to fix this part of her body and how other girls look so much better but i love her for how she is right now and i just

• z: simon?

• si: i want to kiss her all the time but
• si: but i can't

• z: why not? if you want to kiss her just kiss her...

• si: i don't think you understand z
• si: i don't think you understand the struggle to love a girl who won't be yours for much longer
• si: who was never meant to be yours in the first place.

• z: what?
• z: wait simon please talk to me
• z: please tell me what happened
• z: simon
• z: dude
• z: are you okay?
• z: please don't do anything stupid

• si: no promises.

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