shattered.

chapter tweleve; june 8th; 2:20PM.

i'm sorry for hurting you, like the way i do.
i'm sorry for the hurtful things I always say to you.
-casey.

Daniel.

"Simmons! Your released." I head the officer yell as he walked over to the holding cell and unlocked the gate.

I stood up and walked out. I spend almost a whole twenty four hours in there just because, of one stupid mistake. The officer lead me outside to the black BMW that was waiting for me. I had no clue who was in there but I hoped that it would be Zonnique. Seeing her would give me a chance to explain myself. I walked toward the car and opened the passenger side door.

No surprise that it was Bahja. I got inside and closed the door behind me. She pulled off the curb and it was nothing but silence. I decided to break the silence. "So, are you going to ignore me the whole car ride?"

"She's having two babies and you put your hands on her. The only reason I bailed you out was because, I don't want to see her hurting."

It slightly shocked me what she was saying. She can't talk about not hurting Zonnique, when she's with me. "Really, B? You can't be talking when you hurting her just as much as I am."

"I'm not doing it on purpose though, you are. I don't know about this anymore, if I can't have you to myself then I don't want you."

Everything at that moment went out the window, there was no thought put into what I was going to say. "Then, you should go away with me. We can start our own life together."

She pulled up to a red light and looked at me with surprise in her eyes. "Are you serious? You know the paparazzi would still find us?"

"I don't care if they find us, as long as I'm with you there's not a care in the world I could have."

"What about Kaycee? and the babies?"

I shrugged. "Zonnique will take care of them and I'll see them whenever we get back."

She smiled. "Then we should leave now. No going back home to get things, let's just leave."

I nodded. "Fine with me."

Deep down inside I felt that feeling of me not making the right decision. What I thought was right would only hurt her more than the time before. But, leaving is what's best for me. Leaving her with my kids is even more fucked up. I hope she'll understand. I guess I'm just not ready for commitment.

I pulled my phone out of my jacket and went to her contact information. This would be the last text message I send her before a long disappearance.

zonnique 👫: i'm sorry about everything. i'm sorry about the pain i'm causing you. i love you and i thought you were the 1 for me but, my player ways have me caught up rn. i hope you can understand my leave. i'm sorry zonnique, i can't do "us" anymore.

I pressed send and watched the blue line go across. That feeling of regret came. I wanted to go back and erase time but, there's no doing that. It's time for me to go now.

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