shattered.

chapter nineteen; october 2nd; 10:30AM

i can't mess with you
cause i'm still in love with you.
-i can't mess with you, nivea.

Zonnique

Literally after the kissed happened I excused myself from the photo shoot and walked outside, pulling my phone out dialing India's phone number. Thankfully, she answered right on the first ring.

"Please explain to me why your calling me so early in the morning? You know you just woke me up?"

"I kissed Daniel." I blurted out completely ignoring what she had just said.

There was a moment of silence over the phone for a minute. I didn't know if she passed out or if she was just shocked as much as I was. "Zonnique, what is wrong with you? Like where is your mind at? He's just starting to come back into your life and your already kissing the nigga."

"I don't know honestly, I need help. Seeing him with the kids and how happy we all were triggered something in me. He's like a whole different person and I like it but, then there's Bryson who I admire so much."

She sighed. "But, Daniel hurt you and the only thing Bryson wants to do is take you away from all of that pain. Realize this is one of those love triangles that only turn out ugly. What if y'all get back together and he does the same thing? You're risking loosing a good thing with Bryson."

"There can be thousands of what if's in this situation, I can give him another chance and se-"

She cut me off and had anger in her voice. "NO! Sorry but he's had ENOUGH chances. You must want to get hurt again the way your talking. You want someone that's going to put their hands on you every time he's mad at you?"

"No." I whispered into the phone to avoid the tears that were trying to fall down onto my cheeks. "Well I have to go, thanks for the talk."

"Yeah. Talk to you later."

The phone call hung up and I took a moment to myself to just look up into the clouds. Everything India was saying was right but, I didn't want to admit to it. It's hard to move on all together from your first love, especially when you've had their children. I love him and I know I shouldn't because, all he does is break my heart. On the other hand Bryson actually gives a damn about my feelings and shows that he loves me. I don't know what to do but, I'm sure I'll figure it out.

I walked back into the photo studio and seen Daniel dancing with Zion in his arms meanwhile, Dylan was being entertained by Kaycee. I chuckled at the sight and walked over to them. "I see y'all are having fun."

He looked at me with a smile plastered over his face. "We always goin' to be having fun, especially since he's my mini me. And you know he's going to be a football player or basket ball."

"Those are dangerous. I don't want my little baby getting hurt out there so, how about instead he be a dancer and Dylan is going to follow into my footsteps."

"Dangerous? Tuh, he's going to be a tough guy just watch." I guess Zion heard what he said because, he pulled one of those accidental sucker punches. Daniel was in shock while I just laughed.

"Yep, he's tough alright. He's going to be knocking some sense into you." I chuckled and walked over to where Dylan was and picked her up. "And you are mommy's little angel." She smiled showing her gummy gums, I pulled Kaycee close to me also. "As for you, you are the princess."

Daniel walked over to where we were having our girl moment. "I'd be nice if we were an actual family, don't you think? I got some news to tell you too."