Red and Blue (Redvacktor x reader)

A crazy break-down

"Hey, Blessing. Do you mind getting me a water when you're gone?" Jess asked placing her two feet on the coffee table, slumped on the couch on her phone.

I walked over to her and removed her legs from the coffee table. "Of course I will, your majesty." I giggled as bowed before Jess. I grabbed my purse. "Don't you put your feet on the coffee table!" I yelled as I walked out the door. "Can't count on it. It's my apartment too!"

At the gas station.
"Thank you." I said to the employee at the gas station. I had to pick up milk, a few snacks, and a water for Jess. And where do I go? The gas station..duh!

I put the groceries in the back seat, and the water bottle in the cup holder up front. I got to the drivers seat..and sat there.

My mind..literally stopped. I had both hands on the wheel, looking forward, the thing is..I wasn't going.

You're all alone.

No one cares.

Emptiness.

I squinted my eyes..my mind..was nothing, thinking..un-positive things.

Then, it hit me.

I burst into tears. For what reason? I don't know. I felt like I was dying, like my life was going to end. No one cares, and no one ever will.

After ten minutes, I..was normal. Still in the gas station's parking lot. I looked around in both my windows to see if anyone watched my horrific incident. Thank goodness..no one was watching. I looked in my rear-view mirror. I looked..awful. Like I cried over a break-up. I needed to get home.

At home

I quickly ran inside my apartment, covering my face as I raced in. "Hey Jess, can you put the groceries in the fridge for me? Thanks." I quickly dropped the groceries by the door and ran upstairs to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror.

Gee, what a wreck. Mascara was under my eyes, and my cover-up makeup had faded off, leaving me as pale as a ghost. What happened?

I sat down against the door, thinking things out, breathing once every five seconds.

What happened to me? Why did I do this?

Will this happen again?

Hey ya'll! It's me. Sorry for the..random chapter. I felt like putting it in. Because I experienced this recently. My friend, had said I have minor depression, since I have done this often. Un positive thinking, and everything is upside down. Thank you for understand the random schedules! Bye, loves! <3

Shoutout to my best friend, (will not mention who) this friend has helped me through all of this. And I appreciate the help.