Red and Blue (Redvacktor x reader)

You dont know how it feels

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I sat back in my chair as I heard the two Jess's and Shubble talking. "Thanks a lot for being in a video, ladies." I said. "No problemo!" Shelby squeaked. I giggled. Her voice is so cute!

"I'm gonna go get something to eat, talk to you all later!" I put my head set down on my desk and walked to the kitchen. Jess, (not Aphmau) was at work, so she recorded there. So I was home alone.

I trotted over to the fridge in my kitchen, and scanned the food items. "Blah blah blah.." I mumbled to myself.

My mind suddenly stopped, only filling with bad thoughts.

"Kill yourself!"

"Nobody wants you."

"You're nothing."

"Just end everything.."

As if I was mind controlled, my body headed over to where we kept knives. I told one of the large ones and ever so slowly the knife in my hand was going down to my arm.

The knife stung, I could feel it. I made marks all over my arm.

Until it stopped.

The possession..was gone. I looked around. Was this a nightmare? I looked down to my arm. Oh gosh..what was I doing?! I need to see a doctor..NOW!

At the E.R.
I ran quickly to the front desk. The woman at the desk could see my bloody arm, so she called to the nurses quickly.

As they carried me to a room, I passed out.

Half hour later
I woke up laying in a chair, everything ached. There was a nurse..literally standing in my face. "Ma'am, are you alright?" she asked. She took two steps away. I looked around. This sure was the E.R. alright.

I looked to my arm, which had been bandaged. I looked back to the nurse. "I'm fine..I-I'm here to see Doctor Smith." I stuttered. The nurse nodded. "I'll get him right away. He's a couple halls down." The nurse quickly burst through the door.

It had been exactly two minutes until the nurse, and Doctor Smith had arrived. "Blessing, what happened?!" Doctor Smith asked. I explained the whole occurrence from when I was home, to here. He tapped his fingers to his cheek, befuddled.

"If that ever happens again, it could get very dangerous..severe even. It was worse since no one was home."

I nodded. "Have you been taking the medication?" Doctor Smith asked. "Yes I have. Just as you told me." I winced as I tried to use my arm. "We may have to get you on a stronger medication."

"Will that make anything different?"

"No.."

"Will I be okay?"

"You'll be fine..hopefully. But whatever you do..don't overdose on the medication. It can be very dangerous."

Do I tell anyone about this? Well, if I did..everyone would worry about me..I don't want that.

But if I don't..everyone would be upset..especially Jess and Red. Like I couldn't trust them..

Oh..what do I do..what do I do?!

What DOES Blessing do? Does she tell them or keep it a secret! Leave it in the comments what you want!

And if you're asking me how I'm doing..yes I'm doing better. Just letting you know. Hope you're having a good day!