The Beloved Ones

02.

But as I fell in love with stuff you would never expect a person to fall in love with,
I lost all the love I had for myself.

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The bell rang, signaling our last class was over. I had this class with Ryan and Jaxon but this time I sat next to Ryan. So after class we ran out and over to the river that Jaxon and I went to earlier. I couldn't get Blake out of my mind though. He was such a tease, it aggravated me but every time I looked his way my heart skipped a beat. Weird right?

Anyways, the group decided on crashing Natalia Whites party, since it was a Friday night. Each Friday someone from our school throws a party so I'm guessing it was her turn this time. I was never too fond of her, she was always so rude to me for no reason but I just decided to ignore her. She was pretty popular around the school and all cause she was really beautiful. I was pretty popular too but after everything that happened I was just less social I guess. I kept my friends to a minimum and I feel bad cause I had some pretty amazing friends it's just I don't know.

Ryan and I drove home and ran straight to our rooms. I decided on wearing a blue lace dress that goes to mid thing, and also has long sleeves. I put on a pair of black pumps and grabbed my purse. I put on some makeup that consisted of mascara and eyeliner. I ran downstairs to be greeted by the whole group, and I looked over to Jaxon to see guilt in his eyes. I smiled, I was going to have a good night no matter what. At least this dress covers most of the scars...

I shake my head ridding the thought, I jump off the last step and go to hug the girls.

"Girl you look beautiful!" Maddie squeals while I cover my ears. I smile and thank her, I turn to Leslie just for her to do the same.

"Oh me god! Ky I'd totally go gay for you but I'm too straight to do that, but you look amazing!" Leslie grinned and so I gave her a bear hug, somewhat choking her..

I let go and grabbed my keys, walking out the door. We were taking separate cars, Madison and Leslie were coming with me while Ryan and Liam were going with Jaxon.

I put on Try Hard by my faves 5 Seconds of Summer. We all started to scream the lyrics,

1 2 3 4
Cause I'm trying too hard again
She's dropping out of school cause she don't need the grades
The colours in her hair, don't seem to fade
I get dressed up when I go out
But she gets dressed down
She's 17 I told her I'm 20
I couldn't take her out cause mom's got no money
It's stuff like this that makes me wish
That I could change somehow
Sitting here at home
It's obvious she's so out of reach
And I'm finding it hard cause
She makes me feel, makes me feel
Like I try, like I try, like I'm trying too hard
Cause I'm not being me
And it's getting me down that
She makes me think, makes me think
That I try, that I try, that I'm trying too hard again

and once it ended we were all dying laughing. Yup, pretty much sums up our friendship.

"I call dibs on Luke!" I yelled, laughing while they groaned.

"Fine I get Ashton then!" Madison winked at me causing us to burst out laughing again.

"No fair! Then I get Calum." Leslie grinned. What would I do without them? Probably go even more crazy then I was before.