The Beloved Ones

06.

Please don't ever let it tell you that you aren't  worth it,
cause you are to me.
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I walked home that day, cause I thought I needed the exercise. I was losing more and more weight each day. For once I was proud but it wasn't over something that was award winning. When I was 15 I weighed 123 and I was 5'8. I'm still the same height but from my bulimia I've gotten to 105 in the matter of a couple months. I had recently discovered it from an old friend and so I tried it. I've been sticking my finger down my throat every other day now...

It's not healthy but I can't really help it. I find myself looking down at my stomach and frowning upon my appearance. I blame every little thing I do on myself partly because of the depression. It's a struggle but I'm getting through it...

Barely.

I shrugged before I opened the front door of my house. I saw Ryan pacing back and fourth while Chloe was trying to calm him down. Then her eyes landed on me and she burst out in tears.

"I thought it got to the best of you. I was so scared, I thought that I didn't even get to say goodbye or that I love you so much. Please don't ever let it tell you that you're not worth it cause you are to me!" She banged her fists against my chest. Ryan was stood there frozen, probably shocked at Chloe's outburst.

"Now why would I do that? You guys are the only reason why I'm here, and I don't what I would do without you." I wrapped my arms around her petite figures, she was shaking violently so I picked her up, bridal style, and carried her to her room. She had bags under her eyes causing guilt to wash through me. She would be better off without me.

"Get some rest kiddo." I kiss her forehead and go to walk out, but she grabs my forearm and stops me.

"Can you sing me a song? Your voice helps me sleep." I nod my head before I start to sing Sandcastles by Queen Bey.

We build sand castles
That washed away
I made you cry
When I walked away, ooh
And although I promised
That I couldn't stay, babe
Every promise don't work out that way, oh babe
Every promise don't work out that way

Dishes smashed on my counter
From our last encounter
Pictures snatched out the frame
Bitch I scratched out your name
And your face
What is it about you?
That I can't erase, baby
When every promise don't work out that way
No no oh baby
When every promise don't work out that way

And your heart is broken
Cause I walked away
Show me your scars
And I won't walk away, Ooh
And I know I promised that I couldn't stay, bay... baby
Every promise don't work out that way, no no no no no
Every promise don't work out that way

When I finished, she was already fast asleep. I smiled before tucking her in and walking out. I walk downstairs and see Blake? Why was here?

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™ Blake Monroe ™
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Ryan : hey bro it's me YA BOIIII, so anyways I was wondering if you wanted to come over and hang. I need to get my mind off of stuff so bring some alcohol too.

I shake my head, laughing at Ryan's odd text. I grab my keys and jump in my car. I'm there in the matter of a couple minutes and I get out and walk to his front door.