The Beloved Ones

07.

If you look into my eyes,
you'll see that I'm screaming for help but it just won't come out.

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So it's been a week since we found Charlotte and we've gotten pretty close but she seems to close herself off and i did the same after my incident. It's pretty traumatizing and it's like it never seems to leave your mind no matter how much you try.

"What do you think about changing your hair?" I asked and she had a questioning look on her face.

"Oh cmon, my brother will definitely be chasing after you by the time he sees you. Not that he isn't already..." I winked and she scoffed. I started laughing while she was hitting me.

"But anyways I think that sounds nice. Maybe we could dye it..."

"And cut it!" I exclaimed. I grabbed her hand and dragged her down stairs and into the car. We both went to a hair salon near by and I told them what she wanted done. And as she was getting hers done I was getting highlights.

We both came out at the same time and gasped at each other's appearance.

"You look amazing!" We both yelled at the same time. Her hair was now cut very short and dyed a light brown.

We soon left and came back to the house. As we walked in i saw my brothers eyes widen when he saw Char. My brother and his friends were downstairs and when I saw Jaxon, I ran over to him and jumped on him.

"I fucking missed you asshole! And I hope you know I'm still mad at you!" I yelled at him and since he thought it was so funny he was laughing his ass off.

"Aw so cute! Friendship goals! But you and Blake are cuter together." Ryan's friend, Ryder said before taking a picture.

"We are not! Blake and I aren't even acquaintances!" I exclaimed, trying to grab the phone from his hand but he ran away and posted it on Instagram. He tagged me and in the caption it said,

@thekyliethompson and @itsjaxonharvey // you guys are so cute together! ;p

It already had 150 likes in the matter of a couple seconds! I groaned before liking the picture myself. And after a couple minutes, Blake bursts through the door.

"What's up dimples?" I smirked at the nickname I gave him, and yes it was true! He had dimples and they were so cute!

"Nothing much, what about you princess?" He smirked back and I scoffed. He was never going to stop calling me that, was he?

"You suck, I hope you know that."

"And you swallow."

"Well you gargle!"

"But you choke."

"And you two should shut the hell up before I make you." My brother rolled his eyes.

"Do you notice anything different?" I smile and he smirks while his eyes hold a mischievous glint in them.

"Hopefully your attitude." He winks and I scoff hitting him on the shoulder.

"Take that back, dimples!" I yell causing him to laugh and everyone else around us.

"Make me, princess."

"Just date already!" Ryder yells causing everyone to laugh. We both stand there awkwardly until I walk up to Charlotte to get away from the embarrassment.

"Well that was embarrassing..." I grunted while she giggled.

"Well it's true, there's so much sexual tension between you guys I could cut it with a knife." She grins. I roll my eyes and walk over to Jaxon now.

"Do you have a cigarette?" I whisper cause I know my brother doesn't like me smoking. He nods and hands me a lighter and a cigarette. I walk up stairs and go out on my balcony. I pull down the ladder and climb up it.

When I go to put it in my mouth it's yanked away from my fingers causing me to yelp. I turn to see Blake glaring at me with cigarette crushed in his hand.

"What was that for?" I glare back at him causing him to scoff. What the hell was his problem?

"You know these kill you right?"

"That's the point." I grumble but only loud enough for me to hear. Or so I thought.

"What?" He whispers, surprise and worry laced in his tone. I wince before getting up to leave. But he grabs a hold of my hand and yanks me back. I'm pretty much on his lap right now. I looked back at him, ready to give him a piece of my mind but, his eyes stole all my words away. How can someone be so alluring yet so poisonous? He's no good for you Kylie, he's gonna hurt you.

"Why would you wanna die when you have so many people around you that love you? You're being incredibly selfish right now." He seethed causing me clench my fists. Who does he think he is? He doesn't know me, he doesn't know my story!

"You don't know me and even if you did, you don't and never will know my story. I put up this facade and every once just decides to think that I couldn't be anymore happier but they're all wrong! Cause they're too caught up on their high horses to see that if you look into my eyes, you'll see that I'm screaming for help but it just won't come out." My thoughts burst into a frenzy.

But I wouldn't dare say that out loud. I didn't wanna hurt anyone cause I knew that I wasn't gonna be around for too long.

"I'm fine, I didn't mean to say that so just leave me alone please." I snapped and he scoffed. What was his problem?

"Do you have any idea what it's like to deal with a disorder that keeps bringing you down? You probably don't anyways cause why would daddy's little girl know what it's like to go through actual fucked up things." He sneered and then I started to blackout but I took a deep breath.

"You're right I don't know what it's like to deal with just one disorder. I have to deal with three every fucking day of my life! You don't fucking know me so don't act like you do!" I screamed but not before storming off. I've never been so mad in my entire life! How dare he judge me when he has no idea what I've gone through these last couple of years!

I heard my name being yelled out but I blocked it out. I walked through the front door since I ran down super quick cause I had to get out of the house.

I had never been so mad in my life. How dare he judge me when he doesn't even know me! And just as I was starting to believe he wasn't what people thought he was because that's what everyone does to me. I was just starting to think maybe someone knew what it was like to try and make society happy instead of yourself but whatever. I'm done trying to impress people.

It was time for a change...

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