You're Killing Me Inside

chapter 6

Chapter 6:  “My kidnapper”

Ilang araw na ang nakalipas, gabi na at I am surfing my facebook. When someone caught my attention, the photo that Aishlara send me. Ang gwapo niya at ang hot. Matangos ang ilong, may makisig na pangangatawan at kung ihahambing pwede na siya maging kahawig ni Adonis. “Loi at Allysson, handsome right? Hahaha meet my future boyfriend.” Wow umani ng likes at comments. Where in heaven she got this man? Buti pa siya kaya niya magmove on ng ganoon kadali. Hope ganoon din kadali sa part ko, although alam ko na malapit ko na siyang makalimutan huwag lang ulit  siya magpapakita at magpaparamdam.

It’s getting late when I decided to sleep, another day ends and starts. Thank you.

I’m done with my daily routine and I’m now off to school. Our first subject ay Filipino followed by algebra then English and lunch. The day flows rapidly noticing ang nangyayari sa paligid ko, they are all happy and mukhang walang pinoproblema. Habang ako ay nasisiraan na ng bait kung paano ko maisasalba ang algebra ko. I can say that I am 51% failing. And here we are with our last subject, Humanities. It teaches us on how to have your own reasoning. You should reason out, burst what you feel, that’s the reason why we have mouth.  But before you speak make sure you listen and weigh everything surrounds you. Be an owl who sat on an oak tree. It listens before speak, if it speaks he listened. That’s what our Humanities taught us. He dismisses us early.

As I enter the CEA building I already hear the strum of the guitar and their voices too. I joined their choir, since intramurals but I am lazy to practice and no time. It’s good that I have time.

There you have it, at pagpasok na pagpasok ko ay isang napakagandang welcome.

“chupeeeeeee” that boy said. Remember the man I answered nung nakisabay ako sa teacher ko? Well his name is Dave. I don’t know his surname. And his friends are John and Kent. They did the same, pasalamat sila at nageenjoy ako dito. And Sir Escober already came and we started the vocalization. After the vocalization we start singing the national anthem and the hymn of our school. We sung it again and again. Nakakasawa na ang paulit-ulit ginusto ko ito kaya kailangan panindigan na! Well I am not a singer, I am a songer, a FRUSTRATED singer! I can say that I can sing very well. It’s getting late when they decided to end the day. I am now in front of the school waiting for a jeep. If you wonder nasaan ang kotse ko, sadly to say hiniram ng magaling kong kapatid. Or should I say? TINAKAS? Kaya ayan tuloy ako ang nags’suffer. Bwisit ang tagal  ng mga jeep ah, nakauwi na ang mga kasama ko, konti nalang din ang tao sa school. What’s this? Why is it may mga lalaking lumalapit sa akin, who the hell are these? Wait I felt someone grab my waist! Crap!

“bastos ka ah!” sabay tulak sa kanya, at sabay takbo baka mga kidnappers tong mga to! At mamatay ako ng hindi nags’sorry sa mga taong nabigyan ko ng sama ng loob at hindi nagkaunawaan. I didn’t even say I love you and thank you to my family. At yung isa naabutan ako! Bakit ang bilis nilang tumakbo! Naramdaman ko ang panghablot nila sa kamay ko! Lord not this time, bigyan mo pa ko ng chance. I prayed.

“sumama ka nalang kung ayaw mo masaktan”

“siguradong matutuwa si boss sayo”  boss? Ano to kidnap for ransome? Sumama if I don’t want to be hurt? Papasaan din at sasaktan nila ako.

“Let me go! You jerk!!” pagpupumiglas ko, at sinipa ko yung humahawak sa akin. I felt drowsy and naramdaman ko yung malakas na impact ng kamao niya sa tiyan ko. All I see is blurred. Where are they going to take me, I need help.

“Help me, someone helps me” I close my eyes and lost my consciousness.

Where am I? What am I doing here? Wala akong matandaan. Ang alam ko lang I was kidnapped in front of our school. Anong gusto nila? Pera? Malabo, dahil wala ako nun. Baka nagandahan sa akin? Malabo! Panget ako! Pati ang ugali ko!! O baka wala lang silang mapagtripan at ako naisipan nilang pagtripan? Possible? Now I am being paranoid! I heard some footsteps. What am I going to do? Think stupid! Ahh nagkunwari akong tulog, I am shaking and scared. Who are these, the people behind this?

“boss, tulog pa po siya” boss? Who is he? I want to see him

“well actually, I don’t like those people who are fooling me. Who thinks that they can fool me. I can easily recognize them if they are still asleep or if it’s a fake one.” I felt my heart beat begins to beats faster! Lord help me please. Wait that voice? I can recognize it, impossible it was him. I don’t want to open my eyes although there’s a part of me wants to peek in who is the guy behind that voice.

“hoi! Gumising ka na at ayaw ng boss naming na pinagloloko kung ayaw mo na yung buhay mo ipagpatuloy mo yan!” when I heard his word I rapidly open my eyes. And I look around, what place is this?

“Where am I?” I asked from out of nowhere.

“untie her”  that voice I need to find out who is that, I am never wrong when it comes to my instincts!

“Who are you?” I asked I feel dizzy and hungry at the same time.

“Your worst nightmare” he said. All I can only see is his back. “What are you doing in that kind of place knowing it’s already dark? And thank you dahil nandoon ka at mayroon na kaming ipagbebenta sa mga clients namin” ibebenta? Is this a girl’s trade? Selling some girls para maging laruan ng mga lalake? I don’t want what’s happening to my surrounding. All I can do is cry. I want to go home.

“I want to go home, please let me go home. If this is kidnapped for ransomed I can say is I don’t have money!, ” I said as I sob. Behind my strong personality there’s always a way to make me weak.  I heard him smirks, this guy his making me weak. Is he the kryptonite and I am the lady version of superman?

“do you really think I can set you free? Of course not! To think na maganda ka, at mukhang magaling at tiyak na magugustuhan ka ng mga customers ko” shit! I fell on the ground all you can hear is my sobs.

“please, I am begging you let me go home, I have a family. Do you have a sister or your mom, what are you going to do if they are experiencing this kind of situation as mine?” baka sakasakaling tumalab ang pangongonsenya ko sa kanya.

“do you think I let them do it? Kahit ikaw ayaw kong maranasan ang gantong pangyayari but it’s your fault because it’s already late and your still outside of your house” wow! Is it my fault if he dismissed us late? Is it my fault if mabagal talaga ang mga jeep noon at hello?!? Kung ayaw mong paranas sa akin to, bakit ginagawa mo pa rin?

“I want to go home” I said still crying.

“we will go home, my princess” princess? Isa lang ang tumatawag sa akin nun, hindi kaya siya si….. I saw his face at tama ako siya nga, my best friend. My head aches at binibinat pa ata ako, because last night I was experiencing high fever. He went to me, “did I scare you so much? I am sorry.” He touches my face at dinikit ang noo niya sa noo ko all I can say is “I hate you for what you did to me and I can’t forgive you” and I am not kidding I can kill him! “let’s go home, princess” he said while assisting me, I am very weak to stand alone. I don’t have any strength to argue with him. I am reserving my energy for tomorrow’s battle.