Destined- Twilight fan fic

Chapter 15: The Choice

Jacob's P.O.V

What have I done? All I wanted to do was be there for her and now she hates me. How could I have let this happen. I let my instincts rage over when I saw what he did to Nessie. 

Now she's barricaded herself in her room and will not come out for anything. She's going to make herself ill. 

I looked over at Zake with a guilty expression. It was time to stop acting like a child. If he wants he so much he's willing to risk her own life then I wont stand here and let him waste it. Her life is too precious to be wasted. 

I stood up from the corner of the room and walked over to him noticing the resentment that flashed across his eyes when he saw me coming.

"Look. I know you hate me and I'm not a big fan of you either. But we can't just sit here and fight over her. It's taring her apart and its not good for her. If she want's you then she can have you because I will not stand here and let her risk her life like she did before. It was only a miracle that she shielded herself. I don't know how I would even live with myself if she didn't do that to protect herself. So if you want her that bad. Then you can have her. I'll just be happy knowing she's happy." 

And with that I left the room and the house and walked into the forest where I won't be bothered again...

It was only a few days later when I was hunting that Edward showed up. I had spent the past few days without eating and so now I began to feast. The snow was falling more heavily now as the days progressed  to Christmas. 

He stood their casually waiting for me to notice him, to be honest I knew he was there, i heard him coming but I didn't want to leave my meal. Hopefully he would understand. 

It took me a few minutes but eventually I looked up and padded over to him licking the remains of blood and meat from my fur.

"We was hoping you would join us for Christmas tomorrow." Very blunt and straight to the point. He knew how I liked my information. But Christmas. That dreaded day. I couldn't-

"It would mean a lot to us- especially Renesmee." 

I snorted at that comment. Yeah sure Nessie would want me their.

"She would love to have you their. There's being something off with her since the day you left. Somethings being missing and I bet its you." He walked over too me and placed his cold hand on my shoulder. "She loved you Jacob. We all miss you and its only for one day. If you still decide to be somewhere else then we won't bother you again." I could see the truth in his eyes. 

Regrettably, I nodded. A warm smile grew on Edwards face.

"I'll leave some clothes out for you later that you can wear." He said before walking back in the direction of his house. 

I stood their thinking for hours wondering what I would do, say tomorrow, what would happen and how would I reach to Renesmee and Zake together. 

The cold night rushed in and the ice cold breeze cut through my fur before I realised now late it was. 

The moon hung over the clouded sky glowing the white bauble shape as the stars glistened next to and circulated around. 

I clawed through the frost covered branches that where once flustering bushes growing in the summer.

I curled up in a tight ball shielding my face from the forthcoming snow. I closed my eyes and thought of all the happy memories with Nessie...

It was morning now. And according to what Edward had said to me; Christmas morning.