Unpredictable Love

Confused :Chapter 4

It was Alexander he was wearing a dark navy blue suit with a baby blue dress shirt under and a patterned tie.
He was holding some hot pink roses in his right hand,he kept looking side to side.
I whispered ,"Why is he here?"as I sighed rolling my eyes back. I kept looking through the peep hole as Alexander knocked again,I sighed opening the door.
"Heyyy."I said awkwardly serious
"Hey I'm sorry about yesterday I just got out of hand and acted like a teenager sorry."Alexander said as he looked me in the eyes.
My thoughts ran wild about how I can't stay mad at such a handsome man at my door with roses.
"It's okay I guess"I replied overlooking him.
There was a split moment of silence,"Here for you"Alexander broke out as he handed me the roses. I gently grabbed them as I turned back heading into my room."Come in"I said as I was going to go get a vase of water for the roses.
He stepped in ,closing the door behind him. Alexander turned his head looking around my room.
"Nice place you got"Alexander said as he looked up.
"You've been here before"I laughed as I glanced back ,he's the one whose paying for this apartment for me.
"Yeah but it's really clean and organized", he smiled as he kept looking around. I walked off to place the roses in a dark blue crystallized vase. Placed on the ledge of the kitchen window from inside, walking back to my room where Alexander was waiting for me.
"Hey I'm back"I said as I was walking in,"Come here"Alexander said as he was getting closer to me with his arms spread open reaching in for a hug.
I awkwardly lifted up my arms spreading them back opened to him.
Expecting a hug back I felt Alexander's body force push me onto my own bed and Alexander removing his coat.

He started to get on me and kissing me ,I didn't feel the love but I let him since I loved him.
It was about 10 minutes later after Alexander supposedly showed me his love. I looked over at him who was shirtless with the covers mid way to his chest. He was focusing on the red maroon wall in front of us,I decided to speak."Why did you do this?"I asked while looking at the side of his head ,he then turned over to me and answered."Because you like me and I like you ,this isn't what you wanted?"Alexander looked over to me with a curious look."Do you love me?"I said as a tear started to slip out from my eye.

He got closer to me revealing his chest more as the sheets fell more to his stomach."It's not that easy baby, I was once married I'm trying to get over her"Alexander said looking deep into my eyes. My eyes started to look glassy, I tried my best to hold in my tears but that never works out.
"Am I still fit for your job?"I asked trembling.

Alexander kept his arms in the same position and passionately focused into my eyes as I looked back at them. His eyeful warm and prepossessing figure that I admired.
"Ava babe yes you know you'll always be accepted."Alexander side smiled as he moved his arms closer to his body and tilted his head to go in for a kiss.

I felt his soft warm lips on mine, I let out a tear as we kissed.
"But I like you"I mumbled in between our kiss.
He pulled away while he changed positions sitting by the edge of my bed. I stared at him as he got dressed and decided to come closer to me.
"Let me forget, I promise I'm trying to love you back"Alexander said as he backed away getting closer to the door."Bye,I'll see you soon"I mumbled under my breath ,he turned back to get a glimpse of me."Bye Ava baby"He said making an effort to smile as he opened the door ,exiting it.
I sighed watching the door close behind him.
I sat there in my bed under my sheets just staring out of the immense window ,letting my thoughts run wild. What just happened?What did I feel? Why did I let him?
Idiot!I love him. I thought to myself ,I felt disgusting. Readjusting my hair I pulled the sheets closer. Screaming into my soft blanket feeling the heat from my breath build up. Gripping the blanket, leaning on my head board. Reevaluating my morals ,my life is in a tightened knot currently.
After what felt like sluggish time ticking ,I heard my phone. *Ding*