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Death and Love

~~~~Savannah's POV~~~~
The doctor came in with a tense face and clipboard. That's never a good sign. He walked over to us and looked down at the papers then back at us.

"Are you guys the family of Jack Gilinsky?" He asked.
"No but we're his friends." Jack told him.
"Ok well you are able to see him but-" he was interrupted by our cheers.
"But!" He said louder and more harsh.
"He is in critical condition. He can't see or feel but can hear you guys. Also, he'll be out for about a couple of weeks maybe months." Isn't he just saying the he's in a coma.

"So he's in a coma?" I asked.
"That's not what I said. I said he'll be out for a couple of weeks or maybe months." He snapped.
"Yeah, so he's a coma." I retorted.
"I didn't say that! He'll be out for-" he rose his voice.
"Ok ok we get it. He's in a coma.. Now can we go see him?" Shawn questioned .
"Ugh you didn't let me finish my sentence but yes he's in room 345 on the second floor. What I was saying was."

We all got up and left, leaving that idiot of a doctor standing there. We walked to the elevator and headed up to the room. I was really nervous because I didn't want to see him in a hospital bed with tubes and cords hooked onto him. Once we got to the room, I decided that I'll go last.

So everyone walked in while I just sat in the chair thinking about what I'm gonna say. I felt the chair move next to me meaning someone was sitting. I took a quick glimpse to see who it was. Dustin the kid that me and Tyler met at the Starbucks one time.

"Oh hey Dustin." I put on a weak smile.
"Hey Savannah. Are you ok?" He asked concerned.
"Um, I'm just thinking that's all. Why are you here?" I asked him.
"My mom had a baby." He smiled happily.
"Oh that's cool. Congrats. But what are you doing on this floor?" I looked back down to my lap.

"I was gonna go to the cafeteria and get her something so I decided to take the stairs." He told me.
"What are you doing here?" He furrowed his eyebrows.

"My friend got hurt so I'm just letting everyone visit him so I can go in last." I swallowed the lump in my throat.
"Oh I'm sorry. Ugh my moms calling me. Probably about her food. Well it was cool seeing you Savannah! Bye!" We hugged then he waddled away taking the call. I just laughed shaking my head and looked at the blank wall in front of me.

Five minutes later, everyone walked out with the tear stained cheeks looking at me. I got up, hesitated, then walked in. He looked so pale it hurt me even more. I walked over to his bed and kneeled down grabbing his hand. For a second I didn't know what to say so just stared at him. Then I found what to say.

"Jack-" I was interrupted by a beeping noise. It was getting slower and slower.
"Jack I just-" then it interrupted me again with a long dreadful beep. I looked at the heart monitor. A straight line went through it. No more heart beats from him. I kept shaking his hand hoping he was just playing around and would wake up any second saying
"Ha ha Sav! I was just kidding I'm not dead."

But nothing from him.
"Jack Jack! No come on wake up! Please jack." I pleaded with tears already falling down my face. The long ringing noise kept going with its straight green line. The doctors came rushing in pushing me out... or at least tried to push me out but I wouldn't budge and just fought them.

"M'am please. We're trying to do everything to save him but you're gonna have to leave the room." A woman told me. I shook my head furiously and ignored her. Then I felt strong arms grabbing my waist pulling me away from the room.

I tried taking the hands off but it was too strong push off.
"Savannah stop its me. Calm down babe calm down." He hushed me and put his head on my shoulder. I just kept crying my eyes out until there was nothing left and I fell to my feet. Shawn bent down in front of me wiping my eyes.
"They're trying to do everything to save him Sav. Do worry about it." He whispered. I shook my head denying it.

"N-no Shawn. He d-died right I-in front of
m-me." I continued weeping while he took my hands and picked me up bridal style. A doctor came out, whispered something in Shawn's ear then left. I knew what he said. Jack's gone and they couldn't do a single thing about it. Shawn walked us into the waiting room where everyone else was.

It was silent until I heard cries. We stayed there for some time until someone told us to leave. Shawn carried me once again to the car and sat in the back with me. I laid my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes suddenly feeling sleep take over my body.

-----skipping car ride----

We got to the hotel and went to our rooms. I chilled in Shawn's room while we just watched some tv.
"I'm gonna go change my clothes I'll be back." I mumbled to him. He shook his head and kept watching the show which was criminal minds.
I walked to my room and picked out my loose blue tai chi crop shirt and some blue jeans with rips in the knees.

Before I walked back into his room, I went to the kitchen and grabbed some snacks. Troye and Connor walked in with bags in their hands laughing.
"What's so funny?" I asked.
"Well we were at the mall and so Connor found this shirt that he liked so he goes and picks it up but then this old lady grabs it also and is like ' you better get your fingers off my shirt you old hag' and then he's like ' you're not even a guy why do you need this' then she's like ' because it's the only size that fits me' and let me tell you she was big. So then she keeps pulling at it until he lets go and she goes flying backwards. Then we run away laughing our heads off. You should've been there." Troye told me while laughing really hard now.

"Wow. That's funny. I wish I was there but I had to experience one of my friend deaths." I muttered the last part. I guess they heard me though.
"Wait who died?" Connor asked.
"..... Jack." I looked downward trying not to cry. They both came over and engulfed me into a big hug.
"Thanks guys. I'm just trying to think of the positive things that's all. And who has time to be sad." I smiled weakly.
"Sav he just died I think you have the right to be sad." Troye looked at me.

"Anyway, I bought you two shirts, some glasses, and a hat. The hat was Connors idea." Troye gave me the stuff while I stood there some what amazed.
"You didn't have to get me this stuff Tro." I told him.
"I know but you just seemed sad lately so I thought this would cheer you up." He smiled then walked off.
"He's been in a generous mood lately. Today he bought me a pair of shoes and coffee." Connor laughed and held up a pair of black fancy shoes.

"Well... This is knew." I laughed also.
"Connor!" I heard his voice.
"Gotta go. Coming!" He rushed off to who knows where. I just shook my head still laughing and grabbed the goldfish while putting the clothes over my shoulder. I walked back into Shawn's room while handing him the goldfish bowl.

"What's that?" He asked while popping one into his mouth.
"Troye and Connor got me clothes apparently." I informed him.
"Try them on I wanna see." He smiled. I rolled my eyes and went into the bathroom. The first shirt was a black shirt with white letters saying 'Hate You 2'. It matched with my jeans. I walked out and showed him.

He laughed.
"That shirt fits you." He snickered.
"Shut up." I chuckled and walked back into the bathroom. The next shirt was a dark green tank top that said 'don't hate meditate' in small black letters. I decided to put the glasses and hat on to match it. When I walked out, there was a flash in my face. He took a picture.
"Really Shawn?" I whined.
"Instagram." He smiled.
"Ok well at least get a good one." I suggested.

Troye walked in with a black bomber jacket.
"Oh Connor said he didn't like this so he said to give it to you." He smiled then left. I put it on then faced Shawn.
"Ok you can take it now." I told him. He shook his head.
"Not now." He put his phone down. I rolled my eyes and sat on the bed.
"I'm going to sleep." I cuddled the goldfish bowl and fell asleep.

^^^^Shawn's POV^^^^
I took a picture on Instagram of Savannah asleep with the goldfish bowl. The caption was: Thankful to have this funny, and amazing ball of beauty in my life♥️ Luv u.