Firsts

◇ I'm An Angel, Cas

Before y'all yell at me for writing like this because I told ya that you wouldn't read anything sad here, I'm going to say that it ends super duper happy. If you don't believe me, scroll your butts down there and see for yourself. This is also different from how I usually write, thanks to lack of sleep.

(My others are probably better)

Thanks bunches!!

- Ari

It's been six months since Dean died from a bad hunt. Cas hadn't been able to save him, much to the sadness and anger of Sam, despite his angel abilities. They hadn't worked and Cas still blamed himself for it.

Dean now watched his moose of a brother and the love he'd lost from his spot in Heaven. His piece of it was beautiful. Well, in its own way. It was actually a version of the bunker, but happier and more lonely at the same time.

Everyday he'd go to a pool he'd placed just shy of the old barn and stare into its depths, which were a poor substitute for Cas's eyes. He'd use it to watch his family for hours, until one of his friends dragged him away.

Dean had admitted to himself long ago that he'd fallen for Cas. He was just stupid and didn't tell the guy. It was too late to do that now.

"Dean," a familiar voice said from behind him. He frowned and slowly turned around to meet the whiskey orbs of Gabriel.
"What are you doing here?" Dean asked the angel quietly. "Why aren't you with Sammy and Cas?"

Gabe smiled. "They asked me to check on you since Cassie's not allowed in here for a while," he said.

"Are they ok?"

He hesitated. "Look, Dean, I'm not going to lie to you. Cas blames himself that you died, even still, and Sam's trying everything to get rid of his sorrow." Gabe gestured to the pool. "What you see there is less than half of what they've been doing."

Dean looked down at the green grass at his feet. "Can you promise me something, Gabe?"

He was about to do something he never thought he would. If he didn't know what Sam was going through, he probably wouldn't. But if this was going to bring his baby bro some happiness...

Gabe nodded. "I'll try my best, Deano."

Here goes nothing. "I know you and I don't see eye to eye and all, but I see what's between you and Sam."

Gabe opened his mouth to agrue, eyes wide, but Dean held up a hand and continued. "Save it, Gabe. I'm going to do something I didn't think I'd ever do because of so many reasons and give you my figurative blessing."

The angel stood there, shocked, and Dean started to worry. Then he was suddenly wrapped in the smaller man's arms.

"Thank you, Dean," Gabe choked out. "You probably wouldn't believe me if I told you how much that meant."

Dean patted his back awkwardly. "Go and make him happy," he said. "Make sure Cas knows it wasn't his fault that I'm here."

Gabe nodded and pulled away. He looked around at Dean's heaven. "This is where you met Cassie, isn't it?"

Sheepishly, Dean whispered, "It was."

"It's good to know that he's in your Heaven," Gabe said with a grin. "He'd be really happy."

Dean froze. "Don't tell him. I'll tell him, no matter what," he promised. "I just, I want to be able to hug him and tell him I love him myself."

Gabe winked. "Can't stop me from dropping hints, though!" He giggled and vanished with the all too familiar flutter of wings.