Yours Truly

8: lost in translation

I've been losing sleep ever since last week when my mom told me that we were moving back home. Don't get me wrong, I am insanely excited to go back home, but it honestly won't feel the same if Aaron is giving me the silent treatment. I keep telling myself that he's 'just busy' or he 'ran out of stamps' or something stupid like that. I tell myself that and believe it too, until I realize that I haven't gotten a letter from him in 5 weeks. I'm currently sitting on the corner of my bed and I feel completely empty. The worst part is that whenever I step out of my room and face my mom, I have to put on a huge smile and pretend everything is perfect. She knew that Aaron and I were sending each other letters but I never told her that he completely blew me off and left me sitting here drenched in my own tears. I don't understand why I'm so upset over losing him when he wasn't even mine.

"Sweetie I'm headed to the office, will you be alright?"

I wipe away my tears and shout through the door, "Uh yeah mom i'll be fine, have a good day." I hear her walk down the stairs and out the door and I tell myself that I can't let this kid who lives across the country ruin my day. On that note, I decide to get up and go for a bike ride. I get up and head downstairs and outside. I grab my bike, hop on and I just ride for miles on end, my music blasting and the warm summer air blowing through my hair.

Aaron's POV

it's like clockwork, I'm missing her all over again. Everything was going perfect until she stopped answering me. I've been sending her letters and she just hasn't sent a single letter back to me. The last time I heard from her was... was back I went to the beach with Tori and Jared. I'm trying not to think about it but I just can't get her out of my head. I decide to head downstairs and get something to eat. As I head into my kitchen I see that my mom already brought in the mail before she headed to work, I look through the pile sitting on my kitchen counter and prepare myself to be disappointed again. "Bills, adds, magazines...wait, what is this...?" I stop when I see a small envelope addressed to me. I immediately open it up, heart racing and palms sweating. After I tear open the envelope and slide out the paper inside I start to feel sick as my eyes scan over the words scratched onto this paper.

"Dear A,
Aren't you missing your girl? Well I sure aren't. The letters she's sending you are quite touching and kind of heartbreaking, believe me, I've read them all. It's sad to know that you have no idea what they say. What's also sad is that the 'beautiful' letters your sending her are somehow being lost in translation. One thing you'll never know is if you are both missing each other or if she is done with you blowing her off and not answering? Too bad you can't find out.
Your Truly, T"

I feel sick to my stomach after reading this letter and I am beyond confused. I sit down at the counter and think this through. After about 3 times of reading the letter I finally understand. Tori... or 'T' must be getting into my mailbox and is somehow taking out every letter that I tried to send Spencer and every letter that Spencer would send to me, leaving me with nothing, and Spencer with nothing either. I can't even imagine what she must feel like. It makes me sick just thinking of how confused and upset Spencer must be.