Just Whatever's On My Mind

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The first time I really felt my heart break wasn't from a relationship. It was because I'd disappointed my parents... Again. I was trying hard it I still couldn't get past these issues my little heart couldn't understand. I was trying to be a good kid, but I felt like the world around me wanted me to be bad. No matter how hard I tried to fight it, I always found myself in trouble. They were absolutely disappointed and angry. I felt like I'd never be good, I'd never fix it. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I felt empty. I waited for my parents to tell me it's okay. Eventually I just accepted they'd never say it, and we all moved on. It truly was my first heartbreak.