Just Whatever's On My Mind

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I can see the future.
Unfortunately I only seem to see the negative.
Which is why, when last night, I dreamed about the kitten we'd found yesterday in our garage, I knew it wouldn't be good when I woke up.
In my dream, the kittens momma came back. And when I looked in the garage, there was another kennel full of kittens. 6 of them, to be specific. I took them all up in my arms, and one by one, momma cat took them from me. She left one behind, the one I was taking care of the past few days. So I followed her to go let that one be with it's family. The mother cat had gone into the creek behind my house. She and her babies were wading through the water, and I slowly introduced the kitten in my hand to the water as well. Only, the kitten didn't swim. Well, its body hadn't seemed to. But it left behind another copy of itself. And that one was drowning. I stuck my arms in the water to find it, but it was gone. Still, I got in the water and waded around for it, yet the kitten never was found.
  When I woke up, it was to my little sister telling me that she thought the kitten was dead. I jumped up and went to the chilly garage, which was warm last night when we put the kitten back in her box after feeding it. Looking down at the kitten; I knew it was dead too. It's mouth open wide, as if it died calling for help and food. I was determined to try and save it though. It was still somewhat warm when I brought it in. I searched up how to do CPR on a kitten, and tried for ten minutes. Over and over again. But there she was, cold, calling out even in death. And I remembered waking up knowing this would be how my morning started. I feel like my dream was a warning. I hardly ever listen to my dreams, because they tell me lots of weird and convincing things. But this time I should have. I should have stopped wading in the water for something that left its body a long time ago.