Just Whatever's On My Mind

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    Sometimes I'm extremely afraid of my relationships. This is because of a long and decorated past that nobody fucking cares about, so why does it matter so much to me anymore?
   I know why, because after at least 8 years of trying to keep people away from me and fighting to simply walk down the hallway, I have been put into the habit of assuming every time someone outside my family touches me, it's to hurt me. That's why. Fuck you.