Just Whatever's On My Mind

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That time we were dancing in the field, spinning each other around by the arms until we fell down. And the grass was tall and we were separated by it but I could still see you. I wanted to kiss you, because you made my heart light despite the stress and you made me happy in my emptiness. But I'd felt that way a hundred times before about you. When you let me hold onto you because my back hurt so bad, and when we would sit on the rail guard for that one creek on the way to the store cause my cramps were killing me, or when you would try to make me laugh at lunch. That's not what made that day remarkable. What made it that way was the fact that it hit me. Hard. I wanted to just spin around with you forever, I wanted to hold your hand and do everything with you. I wanted to take you on trips and adventures as we got older. I never wanted to let you go and I had never felt like that. Not like that. It hit me when I opened my eyes and you were there looking back. I love you. I really love you.