Silver Bullet

Moonless Misery

I feel like I'm drowning, but not the kind of drowning where every breath you take, all you inhale is water, no this is way worse than that because I can still breath, I can still feel everything, every emotion is consuming thanks to what I am, which means I can drown in the nothingness.

I can't even feel my wolf to see if she can feel Cameron....

Cameron. I think to myself as the tears flow freely down my face, I never knew how much of an attachment we had, how powerful it was until he left. Now that I know, part of me wishes I could just take it back, who wants to have a mate when they've been destined to be alone forever by the world?

" Violet?" I hear my name but I have no energy to move, I just want to stay inside myself because at least then maybe it wouldn't hurt as much.

"Violet, we need to talk." I finally recognise the voice, it's Colin but even his presence can not mask the emptiness inside.

" Just leave Colin, if you know what's good for you, I'm a virus, everyone I know either leaves or dies...and I can't handle it anymore." I say out loud if I could feel anything I'd feel shocked by how dead I sound, but thanks to everything that has happened my whole being is paralyzed.

" I'm not going to leave you like this." He says walking close to me, I see something in his hands but I don't realize it's coffee till after he sits beside me.

" Why is it that when someone is upset someone brings them coffee or tea?" I ask my train of thought, off the rails.

" I don't know maybe they think it will calm them." He says gently like he's scared I might blow up, which given any other time I would have, but right now I just take the cup and try to concentrate on the warmness of the glass.

I take a sip and feel it go down my throat to the hollowness below, I could probably drink a million cups of coffee and it would not fill the void he left.

After a few moments of silence I let sleep overtake the madness inside of me.

*******

My dreams were not any better last night, I kept chasing after something in the darkness just outside my reach. Every time I thought I had a grasp on whatever it was, it would just vanish, and I would be left in the dark alone.

Funny how my life is bleeding into my dreams I guess.

I woke up in my bed, instead of in the living room on the couch so I guess that means Colin carried me to bed. Normally, I'd be embarrassed but I'm not my normal at the moment.

I hear rustling in the kitchen and see Colin kept his promise that he wouldn't leave. I sit down at the table as he grabs two cups and sits down with me.

More coffee, yay that's just what I need. Not.

" So there's something I think I should clear up, you know about you seeing me in the back of a cop car.." Colin says trying to make me talk.

" Yeah I already know about the thing with Magnolia. " I say back aggravated if he's trying to get me out of this darkness he's doing a horrible job, especially first thing in the morning.

" What.. wait..who? He says confused his eyebrows scrunched up in confusion like he's never heard of her before much less slept with her, or maybe they did sleep together and he just does that whole "we don't need names game."

" I figured you was the dude she slept with since she got arrested to." I say grouchy, I really am not a morning person, and I really don't want to be talking about a whore so early either, put those two together and basically you have me being a ass.

" Well I didn't sleep with her, I swear Violet." He says his face serious as he sits down his cup.

" Well then what happened?" I ask frustrated, as I put my coffee down roughly.

" I got into a fight at the mall." He says cautiously like I'm suppose to know all the details based on that one sentence.

"Okay. " I say shrugging, " is that it?"

He looks at me for a moment judging my face before finishing, " with my cousin, who I believe you met, or more than met the night before."

Oh my god. I think as I finally put two and two together, when his words finally sink in. The night before, the night he left, the night I became empty, the night that has forever changed my outlook on life and love.

This isn't happening.

Cameron.

This can not be happening.

Cameron. The name echoes inside my mind like a broken tape on repeat drilling into the cracks, into the darkness.

My body is rigid, my breathing shallow, to the point I'm basically going to suffocate.

No, please, no, don't say it.

" Violet, I know, you know Cameron, and I know you know what he is, so I think it's only fair I tell you why." He says looking me dead in the eye.

" Violet. I'm a hunter."