Always (A One Direction Fanfiction)

Chapter Fourteen: Tears

Harry's P.O.V

I tell Kellie everything that happened the night before, including the fight.

I intentionally leave out the part where I kissed her, knowing that she would not forgive me if she found out now.

"I got that drunk? I haven't even touched anything that contained even a little bit of alcohol since my mum let me sip a bit of her drink last christmas!" Kellie exclaims, furrowing her eyebrows.

I shrug, "I didn't even know you were drinking until your third glass." I say.

I lean in closer, "that's why you shouldn't listen to Niall when he invites you to a club." I whisper, pointing at Niall who is too busy chatting with kellie's mum to notice.

She sighs and nods, "Well he said you were gonna be there, and I'm trying to forgive you remember? So I thought it'd be fun or something." She says, absently picking at the ends of her hair.

My heart does a crazy thump thump and I can't believe she went because of me.

I try my best not to smile and say, "Maybe we'll have more fun next time!" I say, nudging her shoulder.

She smiles and nods, "but no drinking." she says.

"No drinking." I agree.

Although a small guilty part of me wants her to get drunk again just so I could feel her lips on mine.

But even if she would even be drunk enough, she still might push me away.

"Okay, well I'm gonna go change now-" she takes her phone out and reads something "-and I've got to skype Logan in a few so you guys can leave whenever." She says, and makes her way past the living room and says goodbye to all the boys and up the stairs.

I wish it were me who she would have skype dates with.

But I would much prefer a real date, so I can feel her next to me, intertwine my fingers with her, touch her beautiful face and kiss her.

How am I supposed to win her over if she obviously, if not loves, really likes Logan.

I let out a frustrated sigh and comb my hair back with my fingers.

I walk over to where the boys are sitted, and I plop myself down between Louis and Zayn.

"What're you guys talking about?" I ask, uninterested.

"Why oh you and why oh Kellie." Niall says, raising an eyebrow.

I shoot him a look and the boys snicker.

Kellie's mum looks amused and nods at me, "hey you mr. heartbreaker, no funny business with my daughter." She says sternly, but is smiling.

I laugh, "no, not yet." I mumble.

Zayn and Louis who are both in earshot look at me like I'm crazy, but the pair show another emotion that I barely catch.

I shrug and push myself off the couch, and the rest follow.

"Thank you for having us Ms. Richards, we have to go now or we'll get in trouble." Liam smiles, and goes in to shake her hand but Kellie's mum wraps her arms around him and does the same to every one of us.

When she reaches me, she hugs me and whispers something I barely catch.

"Don't hurt her again."

~

"You won't be able to see me for 7 months?" I ask, willing my voice not to crack.

Logan sighs and I can tell from the blue bags under his eyes that he has yet to sleep.

"Yeah, I'm filming a new movie and the director told me to be devoted to being my character or whatever he said." He says, running a hand through his hair.

"So what does this mean? For us?" I ask, my insides churning.

Logan shakes his head and his eyes are glossy.

"I'm sorry" he says, burying his head in his hands.

I shake my head in disbelief, and let a single tear stray from the gathering pool in my eyes.

I see small glints of tears fall from Logan's hands, but it doesn't make me feel the least bit better that I'm not the only one suffering.

It's happening all over again.

Everyone's too good for me.

I shouldn't have let him in.

I shouldn't have trusted him, because everyone's the same.

Everyone will hurt you.

I suck it up and wipe the falling tears from my stained cheeks and scratch the back of my neck.

"It's okay Logan, this isn't the first time something like this happened." I say.

Logan looks up and looks at me with so much emotion I think I could break down again.

Tears stream down his angelic face and he desperately swipes at them.

"I- you- love-" he stutters, but I put my hand in the air and the tears begin to fall again.

I've never seen him look this broken, I want reach for him through the monitor of my computer but even if he were here I wouldn't be able to do that.

He's always the courageous, brave and romantic hero of every story but I guess he couldn't handle being mine.

I shake my head and press my nails hard against my palm, hoping that the pain inside would stop if something else was hurting.

It's not working, and there are already red marks on my palm.

"Good luck with your movie." I whisper, letting the tears fall free.

He looks me straight in the eye and I know he wants to take it all back, but he doesn't.

"Goodbye." I finally say and press the end button at the bottom of the screen and the end button in my heart.

I sit there, contemplating wether I should scream my head off or cry more.

I opt for the second and jump to my bed, hiding myself under the sweet protection of my duvet and bawl my eyes out.

My mum knocks on the door, asking me to eat and I don't reply, because I know she'll know something is up if I even speak one word.

She tries a couple more times before she gets the message that I want to be alone.

I welcome the company of loneliness and I embrace it.

After the tears stop coming, I lie on my bed waiting for sleep to visit me.

After five in the morning the next day, I finally drift off to sleep, dreaming about the times I spent with Logan, and even in my dreams I am crying.

A/N:

sorry I haven't updated in a while! I was busy with school and I went to my cousin's place during my break and I they didn't have internet most of the time and we kept going to the beach and yeah.

I'm really sorry! Please continue to read! Vote, comment, and all that good stuff! Bye!