Is He Really Worth It (Cleaned)

Officially Over

Me and Daywaun had finished off the day with just chillin. We ended up walking to the court and playing basketball. Of course, I lost. It was still really fun though. I had always wanted to play couples basketball.

We walked back to his house because the street lights came on. On our way, Daywaun kept looking around us and behind us like something was wrong. He must've spotted something, because all of a sudden he said,

"Run."
"Why?"

He snatched my hand and dragged me all the way home. He quickly unlocked the door and pushed me inside. Then as soon as  he closed and locked the door back, a group of random niggas started bangin on the door.

"Nigga don't act like you ain see us!"
"We comin for you one way or another!"
"You dead man! You and yo so-called brothers shoulda NEVER messed wit us!"

Then it went quiet.

"Go upstairs," Daywaun whispered to me.

Terrified, I listened and ran up the stairs. I got to the bed room and looked out the window. They were gone.

Daywaun walked slowly up the stairs and caught me lookin through the blinds.

"Jai! Close the dang blinds!" he said pulling me from the window.
"Daywaun, what the heck is going on?" I asked with a worried look on my face. He ignored my question and smiled weakly.

"Babe, I told you. Stop frowning."
"I still gave him the same look and shook my head."

I walked over to the bed and sat down. Daywaun followed and sighed.

"Look Ma, Lamar got us in trouble with these niggas from this gang. He was stupid and stole some weed from em, thinkin that they wasn't a real gang. They obviously turned out to be one, and now they comin after us. They everywhere, and all over the hood."
"You should come live with me. They don't come around where I live."

He rolled his eyes and layed down.

"What about my family Jai."
"Umm, well I could give them the guest house."
"Now what yo parents gon say about all this."
"Well I can ask..."
"Jai, just stop."

I looked down at my legs and sighed. Then I layed down as well, and rolled over facing away from him. So much for the perfect day.

We layed there just thinking in silence for about 30 minutes. I glanced over at him and saw how stressed out he was. Then I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tight.

"Everything is gonna be okay Daywaun, we should pray about it."

He gave me a weak smile and nodded his head. We both got out of bed and kneeled beside the bed, on the same side of the bed. We held hands and prayed to God to keep him and his family safe.

When we finished, I saw a tear run down his face. He quickly wiped it away, and engulfed me in a big bear hug.

"JaiViana, I can honestly say that I love you. You're just right for me, and I'm glad that God brought a strong woman like you into my life."
"I love you to Daywaun. You know Imma always be here for you. I'm down for you."

We both smiled at each other and dapped each other up. We have the weirdest relationship I swear.

I climbed back in bed while Daywaun went around the room lighting all the candles. Then he turned the lights off. The room looked and smelled beautiful.

"This looks very sexual Daywaun," I said raising and lowering my eyebrows.

He laughed. "I know."

Daywaun climbed back in bed and we just laid there under the covers looking up at the ceiling. I decided to wait for him to make the move this time.

He rolled over on his side, and I could feel him looking at me. He wrapped his arm over me, and came on top of me. Then he started kissing all over me and took his clothes off of me and himself. Before he did his thang, he gave me pleasure in ways I didn't know possible. Then, he was inside me, and we made love for an hour.

We took a break and I could smell the love and sweat throughout the room. It was a smell that would make you ready to go again.

He ran his fingers through my curly hair and he was breathing hard.

"You okay babe?" I asked.
"Yea it just felt so good."

I couldn't see it but I bet he was grinning. I ran my fingers down his chest.He looked so sexy.

We decided to chill out, since I was getting a little sore and I gave him a ton of scratches on his back.

I rolled over and laid on his chest with his leg between both of mine. We fell asleep exhausted but happy, and it turned out to still be the best night of my life. I could really get used to this.

The next day, Daywaun drove me back home. Sadly, he said he couldn't stay.

"Please boo."
"Sorry Queen, I gotta check on Ma Dukes."
"Oh okay. Tell her I said hi, and please be careful."
"I will babe!"

With that, he made sure I got in the house safely, and then drove off. I closed the door to the house and started to walk up to my bedroom. I stopped quickly in my tracks when I saw Davionna, Dreana, and Kevin on the couch.

"What the?"
"Jai, please end things the right way with this boy so I can get some dang sleep!" said Davi.
"Ight yall go up stairs while I talk to him."

Dreana and Davionna nodded their heads and went upstairs to their rooms. I walked over to the couch and sat down to where I was facing Kevin.

"What do you have to say," I said looking at messages on my phone.
"Can you at least look at me?" he whined.
"I'm already listening to you so speak while you have the chance dang." He stood up and walked over to one of the chairs. He slammed the chair to the ground and yelled,
"I HATE WHEN YOU ACT LIKE YOU!"
"THEN LEAVE AND FIND SOMEONE ELSE!" I yelled back. Then we both just stared at each other and broke down into tears.
"Baby, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me! I miss you and I need you in my life. I've been suffering without you."

I looked sadly at the boy I saw before me. I used to think age didn't matter, but it does. He's still a little kid, experiencing life and the world. It's already time for me to start growing up.

"Kevin," I sobbed. "I forgive you."

A sign of relief showed across his face.

"But, I can't be with you. You don't need me and I don't need you. Go home Kevin."

I turned away from him and walked up the stairs. Towards the top, I looked down and saw Kevin on the ground crying. I never wanted to hurt him, but I did what I had to do. He isn't really worth it.