Is He Really Worth It (Cleaned)

Falling In and Out of Love

I was now faced with a problem. Me and Daywaun have gotten much closer since he got out the hospital, and can officially say we are best friends. We can tell you how the other eats, sleeps, what we like to do, favorite, color, favorite movie, you name it.

Now, me and Kevin have also became best friends in a couple way, but sadly Daywaun knows a lot more about me because I just can't bring myself to tell Kevin how I feel. Kevin knows this,
and it frustrates him. I will randomly and constantly get calls from him complaining about me not caring and not being there for him. It's like the roles are switched in our relationship. The bad part is, I tell Daywaun and go to Daywaun about everything in me and Kevin's relationship, and go to him about how I feel. And I know, I should be talking to Kevin about it. But for some reason, I just can't, and I think it's because of lack of trust. He has already cheated on me with some girl, which I couldn't be mad because I cheated on him with Daywaun.

I was slowly falling in love with Daywaun and out of love with Kevin.

I was sitting on my bed with Daywaun, and we were listening to Chance the Rapper's new album. Life was going great. School was out, me and Kevin have been together for a month and a half, and I only have two years of high school left.
"You don't want no problems want no problems with me!" Me and Daywaun sang. We were listening to No Problem by Chance.
"This my song!" Daywaun exclaimed.

He got up from my bed and started dancing. I was so weak and tears were streaming from down my face from laughing so hard. He laughed and pulled me up from the bed and made me dance with him. Then the doorbell rang. We stopped singing and dancing and Daywaun paused the music. Then we looked at each other and said, "You gonna get that?" in unison. Then we both were crackin up and raced each other down the stairs to get the door. We were like some little kids.

Daywaun beat me to it as always and I was horrified to see who was at the door.

"Kevin? What are you doing here."
"What am I doing here? I'm your boyfriend. The question is what is he doing here?" he asked pointing to Daywaun.
"Wassup nigga. I ain want us to meet this way but I'm ya girl's best friend. My name Daywaun," he said attempting to dap Kevin up. But Kevin wasn't goin.
"I can't believe this." he said with hurt in his eyes. "We're done Jai, bye."

I stood there in disbelief. Then I grabbed him and me and Daywaun pushed him inside. Daywaun closed the door behind us and we both stood in the same pose. Arms crossed and legs spread. We call it our "not playin witchu" look.

He looked at us like we were crazy.
We continued to look at him, and I finally spoke up.

"You aren't breaking up with me until you hear what I have to say. Daywaun is my best friend. He was there for me when you weren't. He was there for me when I tried to be there for you and you wouldn't let me. He is here for me now. You aren't leaving me Kevin." I walked up to him. "We are going to work this out because we've always told each other we are never leaving each other, we will always work things out. Now go up to my room so I can make you happy." I pointed up in the direction of my room. "And not necessarily sexually, because I made a promise to God."

Now surprisingly Kevin smiled and shook his head. He did as I told him too, and walked up to my room.

"Nicely done," said Daywaun smirking.
I walked towards the stairs and said, "I preciate you bestfrann!"

I got upstairs and walked into my room. I closed the door behind me and there Kevin was, sitting on my bed. I got out my jar of rose petals and chocolate strawberries that my dad showed me how to make (I know weird) from the fridge.

I playfully pushed Kevin off of my bed and pulled back the covers. I sprinkled some rose petals all over the bed. Now I know how it looks. I was not planning or expecting to have sex. I planned on cuddling and stuff.

When I was done I took off my clothes and was just in lace underwear. I slowly walked over to Kevin and took off his shirt. He has been workin on his body, his abs show now. And his pecs are on point. I slowly ran my fingers down his chest to his stomach, and then to his waist. I was about to pull down his pants when he grabbed my hands.

"I don't think you wanna do that."
"Why?"
"One thing gon lead to another."
"Yea you right."

Sure enough, one thing lead to another. Kevin is a major freak. He couldn't help himself. One minute I'm on his lap kissing him, and the next we're under the covers with him on top of me.

I am no longer a virgin.

After it was all over and I have to say, it was great, me and Kevin got down on our knees and prayed to God askin him to forgive us. I am very emotional because people wasn't lyin when they told me I would be emotional afterwards.

"Babe what's wrong?"
"I don't know," I said with tears streaming down my face.

Kevins wrapped his arms around me and held me close to him. My tears were now streaming down his chest. We sat there cuddling for a while, and he started singing our song to me. Like a lot of other couples our age, we remade the song, "My Beyoncé" by Lil Durk and Dej Loaf to where it goes Kev and Jai, Kev and Jai" instead of "Durk and Dej, Durk and Dej."

He was so sweet and made me feel a whole lot better. I love him.

"Kevin," I interrupted his singing.
"Yes wifey."
"I love you."
"I love you more."
"Nooo I love you even more."
"Nooooo I love you wayyyy more."

We went on for a couple of minutes arguing over who loved the other more, when I realized everything we just did was a huge mistake.

I quickly got out of his arms and looked at him horrified with new tears in my eyes.

"Babe what's wrong?"
"Did you wear a condom?"

He just sat there with a stupid look on his face. What have we done.