The boyfriend switcher

The boyfriend switcher - Chapter five part II

Chapter five part II

You know those awkward situations where you just don't know what to do? Kind of like when your on your own and you slip on some ice, and there's people behind you laughing, but you can't do anything except get up and pretend nothing happened. Yeah, well that's happening to me right now. Why did Olivia have to go?!

My breathing started to speed up and I could feel the sweat forming on my forehead. I did the only thing I could do.

Run.

I ran straight through the doors and outside. I could hear the others shouting my name, but I ignored them. Having no idea where I was going, I just kept running through various places. This would be so much easier if my car was fixed! But no, of course it isn't!

During my rant in my head, I continued to run. I didn't know where I was going. I didn't care. I just ran.

After about five minutes, I was still going strong. I wasn't even heading home. Just running around like a lunatic. After another five minutes, it began raining. I thought it was going to be a small shower. But no, it turned into a full storm.

The storm had all the cliche weather details. The thunder, the lightening. All that exciting stuff. And before you ask, no, I did not get struck or electrocuted by lightening. Although I have to admit, I wouldn't have minded that one bit compared to what my mind is going through right now.

Running in the rain was not my ideal Thursday night, but I'd rather this than go home and face the embarrassment of my friend's seeing me like this.

I finally ended up in the middle of a park. Having no idea where I was, I shrugged and sat down. It was as if my body was on auto-pilot. Something I didn't like, but I had no choice.

My mind began racing through the past hour. How did I not know that Vince loved me? Am I the mystery girl that he liked through-out high school?

And what about Josh? I haven't seen him in two years, at the end of Junior year! Although that was my fault. It was awkward with Josh being Brendan's best friend, and me hanging out with him. So I cut off all contact with him. I seen him around a couple of times in Senior year, but we never acknowledged each other. I thought he would be peeved at me for doing that to him, but he never said anything. He just let me be.

And lastly, there is Brendan. How can he make me feel so angry, but make me want to be around him at the same time?! Wait, scratch that, I don't want to be around him. I hate him for making me feel like this. It's not fair for him to just show up like that all of a sudden. Yes, he did send me a letter. But it's not like I sent one back to him saying, 'Brendan, hi! I haven't seen you since you made me lose my best friend and broke my heart into two! Why don't you come and visit?'.

I am really confused right now. My brain is currently working overload. Even though I've never thought about it, it does kind of make sense.

Obviously, Brendan hasn't gotten over me yet. Maybe he does regret cheating on me if he still like's me after all these years. But that still doesn't change anything. Even if he does regret it, I'm not taking him back. No way.

Josh, well, I don't think I've ever seen him with a proper girlfriend before. Of course, he's had his fair share of short-term girfriends. But then they get attatched to him, and he dump's them after a week. Maybe he only like's me because he was jealous of mine and Brendan's relationship. Maybe he wanted a relationship like the one he had. Well, before it got ruined anyway.

And then there is Vince. After knowing each other since we were four, you'd think I'd know if he love's me. Well, truth be told, I had no idea. None at all. But they can't just go and blurt it out at me like that anyway. It's all a bit too much to take in. I wonder if that's the thing Vince wanted to talk to me about after I finished work? Which, by the way, I still hadn't finished cleaning up.