Taiven Parmiga

Chapter 30: Confessions

After rushing out of the house and to my car, I find myself nearing his house, the clouds still lingering above, showering down more rain by the minute. When I finally arrive, it's pouring down. But I'm not gonna let rain get in the way. Not this time.

As I put my car in park, I see Evan walking out the door and standing under the protection of his roof on the front porch, watching me with a confused expression on his face. I glance toward him before getting out and starting to walk around the car and through the grass towards him. Soon he starts to walk to meet me halfway and I suddenly stop when the two of us are only a mere 9 inches apart.

I look up at his still confused expression and the rage that's been building continues to grow inside me.

"I've done everything right. I've been honest and open and loyal to you ever since we decided to be together. From the very beginning, I never lied to you about anything." I start off calm, but once it starts to build up, the anger gets harder and harder to hide in my voice and tone. "And I am sick and tired of running around in circles, driving myself crazy because I don't know what to believe. I want to trust it isn't true but if it is, all of this was a waste for me." By now we are both completely soaked. I can feel drops of water sliding down my face and neck, all the way down to my now soggy red converse. "I'm not gonna sit around and wait for you to tell me the truth when I already know it. And I am NOT gonna watch you look me in the eyes while you lie to me and make me question every feeling I've ever had for you. Not being able to trust you isn't acceptable for me. I can't waste my time with someone like that." My voice grows quieter as I finish, "It hurts too much."

I look into his eyes, desperately searching for any sign of an answer, any sign of hope. A small chance that we still have a shot at making this work. But his brow furrows deeper as he speaks, "Tai, what are you talking about?"

"It's Emma, Evan!" I shout out of frustration. "The night of the party, before you came to get me." I take a deep breath before speaking the most important question at hand, "Were you with her?" My anger fades quickly and is replaced by pain and longing to know the truth and an aching for everything to be okay. But I know. I see the look on his face after I've spoken, and I know what he's going to say. His eyes become sadder and sadder by the second and he drops his head before speaking, "Yes. I was with her that night." 

He finishes and looks up to lock eyes with me. I feel my teeth clench and my heart race as my blood runs cold and chills fill my entire body. Before I know what is happening, I slap him across his left cheek with my right hand. He turns away and starts to tear up when he slowly looks back at me.

"What did I do? How did I screw this up so badly that it made you ant to go to HER?" The shouting has returned and every word I scream out is filled with fury, but also a lot of pain. "All that stuff you said to me. All the time we spend together. The places we went and the things we did. It meant so much to me. Every second of it!" Tears are spilling over at this point, mixing with the raindrops that continue to slide down my entire body. "I guess it IS my fault, right? For being stupid and believing I was important enough to get that much attention from you. For being an IDIOT and thinking you ACTUALLY cared for me when you were running off to another girl the second we had an issue." He looks at me with the same pain in his eyes that I'm feeling in my entire body as he starts to shake his head.

"It isn't like that. Emma was just-"

"I don't care! It's YOU, not her. I wanted YOU! That's ALL I wanted!!" I scream back at him.

As I'm looking up at him, my sight starts to go blurry. I see black fogging up the corners of my vision, spreading by the second, my head starts to pound and I can't seem to breath or speak. The last thing I feel is falling toward the grown, as the rain continues to pour on me. I hear Evan scream my name and feel his strong arms catch me at the last second.

Then...nothing.

A/N:

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