"Most bomb p----"
"Natasha, don't go" Steve pouted, giving her a peck on the lips which made Bucky gag once again and throw his face away from the beautiful scene "I have to go, Sam is still not here and I need to check on him or give him a call" she blurted between their kisses.
Bucky was numb.
Bucky needed to hear the sounds of Jakarta crying.
He needed to hear Sam's groan while he went to attend to him.
Bucky needed to watch them with adoration in his eyes and wrap his arms around Sam.
"You know where he is?" Bucky asked, his voice hoarse from lack of talking and dark bags under his eyes because unlike Steve Bucky actually worried about Sam, Jak and Sylvie. "Yes," she bit her lip, her eyes turning to Steve then Bucky "he'll be back in a month, he decided to go to Germany for a while"
"So he took Jak and Sylvie with him?" Steve unlaced their fingers, Natasha nodded "it was my idea, a trust test which Sam obviously kept saying no to but eventually went, Thor and Wanda went with him"
"Okay, I trust Sam I do," Bucky repeated, he looked at Steve "do you trust Sam?" Steve's eyes went down and Natasha rolled her eyes which made him look up at her "I'm trying I really am, it's just that something could happen and I won't be there to help or-"
"Thor and Wanda are there" Natasha said caressing Steve's face.
"I..I know" Steve mumbled head down in shame. Sam let Natasha and himself into his home without any questions when he needed a place to stay.
"Anyways you guys need to get drunk and get loose because I can feel the tension right now and it's too much" she squealed pushing both Bucky and Steve out of the room, she held her breath "you both stink so take a shower,dress up and go to the bar get drunk"
"Okay" they grumble.
"Steeeeeeeevvvviiie are you a camera because every time I look at you, I smile" Bucky slurred poking Steve in the chest, Steve rolled his eyes and poked Bucky in the forehead.
"You are too drunk"
"And you're a spoil sport, let's dance" Bucky yelled dragging Steve through the sweaty and grinding bodies of drunk men and women "Bucky no" Steve tried to retreat but Bucky wrapped Steve's arms around his waist.
"Bucky yes" Bucky laughed, surprised that the drinks are working on him.
Steve opened his mouth to start an argument but a moan came out instead, Bucky was grinding against his crotch when Bucky turned to face him Steve was hypnotised by Bucky's red cheeks, lips and hair tied into a high bun and Steve couldn't help but lean in and feel Bucky's lips against his own, his stomach churned with butterflies and their lips didn't leave until they left the bar.
Bucky didn't feel anything different, he didn't feel at all but that's what he didn't want. He needed feel the pain of Steve gripping onto his hips.
He needed pain.
Steve couldn't help that he took Bucky to a hotel.
Steve was sober.
But drunk with lust.
Bucky was drunk
But filled with a need to feel.
All he could see while Steve undressed him was Sam's cheeky smile when Bucky asked who ate his cereal.
As Steve whispered sweet nothings into Bucky's ear, Bucky could see his hear Sam complimenting the ex assassins body while Bucky thrusted into the darker man and loud moans erupted from the room two days before their wedding.
Steve kissed the tears away from Bucky's face as he slowly thrusted into him, his grey eyes distant and full of nothing. The tiny whimpers that escaped Bucky's mouth pleased Steve, Bucky needed to feel something and Steve was fulfilling that need. "Bucky, bucky open your eyes" Steve moaned hitting Bucky's prostate over and over again "More Steve just more" Bucky yelled as precum came out of him.
"You're so beautiful being a hot mess underneath me"
Bucky's eyes opened Steve could've came right there and then, it was filled with lust as Steve's hands roamed Bucky's chest tracing the lines of his abs and he leaned in to overpower Sam's hickeys with his neck.
Steve slept.
Bucky cried himself to sleep.
