We Happened

Chapter Thirty

Radhika's pov

When I landed in Delhi I had no idea this is where my visit would lead me to but as they say life has it's way to surprise you.

Living apart wasn't easy for me but now again going through the same thing is more harder than I thought. Sometimes you just aren't prepared for things in life and it blows your mind.

I didn't intend to meet Arjun or talk about Rishabh but I was curious. I just wanted to know what is it that he wants me to know so badly about Rishabh and maybe this curiosity is not going to do any good, it was a risk I was willing to take.

"I'm sorry I'm late I was at the hospital with Rishabh" Arjun said taking the seat in front of me.

"How's he doing?" I asked

"He's good. Conscious now. They'll release him today."

I wanted to ask more but I stopped myself. I wanted to ask if he asked about me but I wasn't sure I was prepared for the answer.

"What do you want to talk about? I've a wedding to attend" I said instead.

"I know I'll make it quick. By the way I have to attend the wedding too so I'll make this fast." He replied and I nodded "You left an year ago and I know you're settled in Jaipur" I raised my eyebrow "I heard Anya talk about you one day with Ryan."

"Okay. So?"

"I've no idea why you left and honestly I don't want to know because it isn't my place to know but I want you to know that after you left Rishabh's state of mind was shaken to core. I've never seen him so lost in my entire life. He kind of shut everything out from his life all together. He wouldn't think about you or talk about you or say or listen to anything that might have your name or thought. If he would think about you or remember something that related to you, he gets a panic attack. The thought of you not being around gave him anxiety."

I felt guilty. Not because I left but because I thought he was unaffected. I didn't know my absence has made such an impact in his life.

"He has crippling anxiety and maybe it's because he never got his closure or maybe it is because he doesn't know how to let go of you but I can't keep watching my brother go into deep darkness and not try. He is therepy and I know that is helping, as much as it could but he's also a coward who cannot face his issues. He has shut all of us out because he's so terrified that we will bring you in with us. All he does is work, Radhika. I'm genuinely scared for his life. I can't remember him smiling, or laughing, or even living. He's shell of a person who is just breathing. It's too much for us and I completely understand that why I'm going to ask of you is going to be completely out of line but I'm desperate."

I was dreading the favour. I knew the question, I could feel it in my core but I was still dreading it "I want you to stay and help him have closure so that he could have his life back. I get what an assohole you must think I am just asking this huge favor but I can't lose him. He's too important to me. I'm helpless and I'm sorry to have to put you in this position but please understand, this is my last chance to save my brother"

By the time he finished talking I was stunned. I didn't know what to say or do or even think in this situation. I didn't know how to respond to something like this.

I wanted to make sense of it all but it made no sense to me. We were both in this destructive stage at our life yet we can't do anything to move on from this. I was terrified of what Arjun was asking me to do. The magnitude of ask was making my head spin. Leaving Rishabh has been one of the hardest things I've ever done. I have hated every bit of it and doing it all over again might actually kill me.

I wanted to say no right away. I had thought about this the entire way over here. I thought I will say no before he could even speak but I couldn't. When it comes to Rishabh, saying no does not come easy at all. As much as I love Rishabh, starting all over again would hurt like a bitch. I didn't know if I had that kind of strength in me to help him and save me at the same time.

"Arjun I know you're worried for him and trust me after hearing you, I'm worried as well but I'm not sure if I can help. There was a reason I left and that reason still applies. I don't know if I'm the right person you're asking help from"

"I understand where you're coming from and I respect your decision even though I don't know the reason but I'm sure you're the right person. You don't have to answer right away. You can think about it and tell me whenever you want to"

"Okay. I'll think about it but don't get your hopes high."

"I won't. Just think about it"

The entire wedding my mind kept drifting to my conversation with Arjun. I tried my hardest to not think about it and just enjoy the day for my brother but I couldn't. My mind won't shut down. All the things he said kept playing in my mind like a tape and at one point it was very disturbing but I couldn't stop.

I've compared all the odds but everything comes down to the fact that Rishabh needs me. I wanted to be selfish but being selfish is what created this situation so I didn't want to do it again. My guilt was crippling me. It sucked how doing the right thing and protecting myself felt two different things. It shouldn't have been this hard. I was again in the same position as two years ago. I'm still in so much love with him and he isn't.

You sometime just don't know whether a decision is your best decision or your worst decision but you've to take it anyway. I didn't know whether my decision is going to hurt me this time or not but it felt the right thing to do even if it might kill me this time.

I saw Pakhi and Arjun talking to some people. They've been eyeing me throughout the wedding and I know they want to know my answer but I was avoiding them. I walked up to them since I've finally found my answer.

"I'll stay" I said

"Are you sure?" Arjun asked, Pakhi looked at me with concern. I wasn't sure myself but he needed me. I looked at him in the supermarket aisle. He needed me alot more than I need him.

He needs me, that's all I kept thinking while saying "I want to do this for him"

Pakhi smilied and hugged me tightly "Thank you. Thank you so much"

I smiled softly "Can I meet him?"

Arjun nodded "Yes, ofcourse. When do you want to meet him?"

"Now"

"Now?!"

"Okay. Let's go"

I nodded. This is again how I drown myself but I want to help him. I love him too much to get destroyed.