We Happened

Chapter Thirty

Radhika's pov

When I landed in Delhi I had no idea this is where my visit would end lead but as they say life has it's way to surprise you apparently it is being very surprising. Living apart wasn't easy for me but now again going through the same thing is more hard than thought. Sometimes you just aren't prepared for things in life and it blows your mind.

I didn't intend to meet Arjun or talk about Rishabh but I was curious. I just wanted to know what is it that he wants me to know so badly about Rishabh and maybe this curiosity is not going to do any good, it was a risk I was willing to take.

"I'm sorry I'm late I was at the hospital with Rishabh" Arjun said taking the seat in front of me

"It's okay. What do you want to talk? I've a wedding to attend" I replied

"I know I'll make it quick. By the way I have to attend the wedding too so I'll make this fast." He replied and I nodded "You left an year ago and I know you're settled in Jaipur" I raised my eyebrow "I heard Anya talk about you one day with Ryan."

"Okay. So?"

"I've no idea why you left and honestly I don't want to know because it isn't my place to know but I want you to know that after you left Rishabh's state of mind was shaken to core. I've never seen him so lost in my entire life. He kind of shut everything out from his life all together. He wouldn't think about you or talk about you or say or listen to anything that might have your name or thought. If he would think about you or remember something that related to you, he gets a panic attack. The thought of you not being around gives him a panic attack. It is a severe condition but he wouldn't consult any doctor or anybody. We all have tried to make him talk to a therapist but he wouldn't talk about you to anybody. I know that this is too much for you to know but this is very serious. He hasn't talked to his mom for more than five minutes in last two years. He doesn't spend time with his family or friends. He's always working even on some nights I would find him in the office working. He doesn't allow himself to miss you or think about you and it is effecting his mind now. He needs you, he needs your help and I know you aren't liable to help us but I really want you to know that it is important for to stay and help him"

By the time he finished talking I was stunned. I didn't know what to say or do or even think in this situation. My brain was running so fast without any direction and all I could think of the times my absence has effected Rishabh severely. I felt guilty for being the cause but also it was the only way out in our situation. Arjun wanted my help and helping him means staying, reliving all of it again. I wasn't sure if I could do it or not. As much as I love Rishabh, starting all over again would hurt like a bitch. I didn't know if I had that kind of strength in me to help him and save me at the same time.

"Arjun I know you're worried for him and trust me after hearing you, I'm worried as well but I'm not sure if I can help. There was a reason I left and that reason still applies. I don't know if I'm the right person you're asking help from"

"I understand where you're coming from and I respect your decision even though I don't know the reason but I'm sure you're the right person. You don't have to answer right away. You can think about it and tell me whenever you want to"

"Okay. I'll think about it but don't get your hopes high."

"I won't. Just think about it"

The entire wedding my mind kept drifting to my conversation with Arjun. I tried my hardest to not think about it and just enjoy the day for my brother but I couldn't. My mind won't shut down. All the things he said kept playing in my mind like a tape and at one point it was very disturbing but I couldn't stop.

I've compared all the odds but everything comes down to the fact that Rishabh needs me. I wanted to be selfish but being selfish is what created this situation so I didn't want to do it again.

You sometime just don't know whether a decision is your best decision or your worst decision but you've to take it anyway. I didn't know whether my decision is going to hurt me this time or not but it felt the right thing to do.

I saw Pakhi and Arjun talking to some people. They've been eyeing me throughout the wedding and I know they want to know my answer but I was avoiding them. I walked up to them since I've finally found my answer.

"I'll stay" I said

"Are you sure?" Arjun asked.

Honestly I wasn't sure but I never will be "I want to do this for him"

Pakhi smilied and hugged me tightly "Thank you. Thank you so much"

I smiled softly "Can I meet him?"

Arjun nodded "Yes anytime"

"Now"

"Now?!"

"Okay. Let's go"

I nodded