Last time I saw you (Panem high school)

Chapter 26- Walking Out

Katniss's POV

"Well I am not supposed to say but since how much she weighs is so concerning for her height and age I have to tell you. I am sorry Katniss. She weighs 93 pounds. I have to go out for a few but I will be back soon." She says and then leaves.

Shit! Shit! Shit! Shit! Shit! I swear in my head.

Peeta and Clay look at me with big eyes and there mouth wide open.

"Katniss you weigh 93 pounds and you still think you weigh too much?!" Clay asks disappointed, angry and concerned.

"Yeah Katniss. First your were 135 then 115 and now 93 pounds. You don't even weigh 3 digits! And Katniss don't you dare get mad at e becasue I have been here for you the whole time all the way through this and I am very concerned about you. So is Clay" Peeta tells me with tears starting to stream down his face.

I get up and grab Peeta by the face and give him a kiss on the lips. I then eventually pull away.

"I am gonna try and get better for both of you. I hate seeing you guys hurt and in pain just because of some worthless person in your life. If me trying to get better makes you happy then I will try. Also notice how I use the word the try. I am not promising you guys I am gonna get better but I am gonna TRY to. I may have some bumps and flashbacks also I still might cut sometimes but I will try to stop for you guys. Both of you. Also if you guys did not care about me right now I would be long gone which is what I would like but I would just be putting you guys through more pain if I do kill myself and if I ke all of this up. But both of you have to promise me no matter how hard I get that you will never ever give up on me, promise?" I say.

They both look at each other and then look at me.

"I promise." They say in sync and I actually smile this time. Not fake but a real smile. They smile back.

"Katniss can I talk to you alone?" Clay asks.

"Yeah sure." I respond and then we both look at Peeta. Clay gives him a guilty face for probably kicking him out of the room. Peeta gets up and starts heading towards the door but before he can touch it Clay says something.

"I am really sorry for kicking you out Peeta but I just need to talk to Katniss alone and if you hear you might be wreck, okay?" Clay tells him.

"Dude it's cool! I totally understand." Peeta says and then he walks out of the room.

Clay then takes a seat.

"Katniss, when you said earlier that you still weigh too much what was your goal weight?" Clay asks.

"I don't know. I can't remember." I lie.

"Katniss you really think that I know that you are not lying? I know you are so tell me the truth."

I was not going to put up a fight with becasue first of all I am really tired and second of all Clay would probably win either way.

"Fine my weight goal was 85 pounds!" I shout.

Clay's face instantly frowns and I see tears in his eyes. He then looks to the ground. Once I realize that I made him sad and upset for yelling at him I instantly feel really bad.

"Clay I am-"

"It's fine Katniss. I am gonna go get your friends." Clay mumbles walking out the door.

"Wait Clay-" I start talking but the door slams and he is gone. He is gone. The tears bubbling up in my eyes, they then start falling down my cheeks. I put my face in my hands and start crying o myself and thinking in my head why was I so dumb!

He was just concerned about me and he really cares about me. All of the sudden the door opens and I hear the talk of multiple voices. I wipe my face so it looks like I have not been crying and I sit up and I greet everyone of my friends. Annie and Finnick come up to me first holding hand and I give them both a hug at the same time. Then everyone else comes up after them just saying how glad they are that I am okay. When I the turn my head I see Peeta looking at me with concern.

"Hey can everyone please get out? I want to talk to Katniss for moment privately." He says.

Everyone just responds by walking out of the room. Peeta walks over and sits next to me on the bed.

"Katniss what's wrong? I can tell that you were crying." He noticed.

'"Well um Clay made me tell him my goal weight so I did and once I told him he got mad and just walked out on me leaving me all alone." I tell Peeta and I then start crying.

Peeta wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his embrace. He then lets go to look at me.

"Katniss what was your goal weight?" He asks curiously.

I look at the ground ashamed to tell Peeta what it was. He will probably just walk out on my like Clay did, right? All of the sudden my head is lifted up so I am not looking at the floor anymore, instead I am looking into Peeta's eyes. His eyes are full of concern.

"Katniss please. You have to start opening up to me if you want to get better. Why won't you tell me?" Peeta asks with a voice crack.

"Peeta I-I.." I do not know what to say.

"Katniss what?" He asks desperately for an answer.

"I don't want to tell you." I say looking down again.

"I understand Katniss but what I don't understand is WHY you won't tell me? Please Katniss I need to know. I want you to get better." I look up at Peeta and see tears forming in his eyes. Wow I am so mean that I started making him cry. I am always hurting people and putting them in pain. I hate it. I decide to tell Peeta because I don't like seeing him sad because of me.

"Peeta.... I am ashamed. I am embarrassed. I an scared. I told Clay and he walked out and I am afraid that you will do the same. I know you wouldn't but the voices in my head keep telling me that you will. I want to get better but it is impossible. These voices in my head won't ever stop. They have been in my head way to long for me to just ignore them anymore. They are a part of me no Peeta. I am scared to open up to anyone because I feel like that everyone will look at me completely differently then they do now. I am embarrassed of what you guys will think. I am ashamed though of because what I turned into. Just some depressed, lonely, cutter anorexic girl. Who would want to even be with me Peeta? I know me and you are together but what do you ever see in me, because I see a absolutely nothing and all I do is put you in pain. Now to answer your question about your goal weight it was uh... Um.... It was uh... It was uh 85 pounds." I mumble the last part about my goal weight being 85 pounds.

I lift my head up and prepare for the worst.

CLIFFHANGER!! I am so sorry it is taking me so long with the chapter guys but since I have grown in writing and I am a lot better writer now then I used to be so I am trying to figure out how to change the writing into the style of how I write now. Happy holidays everyone!!❤️❤️