Last time I saw you (Panem high school)

Chapter 29- The decision

Katniss's POV

Katniss I-I um...I am really sad that you might have to go to rehab but one thing is, is that you will get better and I know it. I want what is best for you. I don't want you to go because you are leaving me and everyone will miss you but on the other side you are gonna get better for sure. If you do end up going I promise you that I will visit you every single day even if I only get to see you for five minutes or something, okay?" Peeta tells me with a croaky voice.

"Thank you Peeta." I say with a small smile.

He nods back and smiles too. He then gets off the bed and stands up while walking towards the door.

"Peeta where are you going?" I ask really confused.

"Well Katniss I think Clay wants to talk to you about this privately right way so you guys can make a decision. I will be waiting outside your room so if you need anything just shout my name and I will come in. And guys please try not to argue. Just go back and forth with each other's opinion so you don't end up ripping each others head off." Peeta says chuckling at the last part with Clay and I.

"Thank you Peeta, we will do our best to stay calm." Clay smiles at him.

Peeta then returns the small smile and he walks out of the room closing the door. Clay then looks over at me with sadness filling his eyes. He then opens his mouth and begins to talk.

"Katniss, I love you to death but I think it is best if you go. I hate seeing you in pain and you don't deserve it but I do know that you deserve to get better. Peeta and I would visit you every single day along with Prim and the group will come even sometimes too. We will all miss you so much but I hate seeing you like this and I want you to be happy and I don't even wanna think about losing you.. I can't imagine having a life without the girl on fire." Clay tells me and his eyes start watering up at the end.

I stare at him. I just stare at him thinking of what I can possibly say to that.

"Caly... I-I-I... I don't even know what to say.. I guess I never wanted to admit it but I actually really do need the help. I don't know why I have been avoiding it this whole time but I think I was scared. Scared to reach out and say something becasue I thought that you guys were gonna hate me and just I was, I was scared for how you guys were gonna react and I didn't wanna say it out loud and actually face the fact that I am depressed, anorexic and suicidal and I cut. I never wanted to face the fact and I am today and I do need the help but I'm scared.. I guess that is why I don't want it but if you want me to get help, I will be willing to do that for you and Peeta if you really want me to, alright? I love both of you duy so damn much." I say my voice cracking at the end and tears start leaking out of my eyes.

"Awe Katniss.. We will love you no matter what, okay? I promise you that Katniss." Clay says looking at me and it just makes me cry more. He comes over and hugs me and then the door opens and I turn m head while we are still hugging to see who it is.

"Oh oops sorry guys but it has been quite a bit and I just wanted to make sure everything was alright, haha." Peeta chuckles awkwardly. Me and Clay pull away.

"We have made a decision Peeta. Go get the group and Prim." Clay tells him and he runs out of the room and we hear him yelling for them and me and Clay just chuckle.

After about a intue the doors burst opena nd everyone is in here and Peeta is in thr frton of couse and everyone is quiet.

"What's the news???!!!" Peeta then yells.

Clay looks at me and gives me a small nod letting me know it is good for me to say it. I look up and look at Peeta in the eyes.

"I am getting help."

Hey loves;) The book is completed!!!! I have ended this book quite early becasue I have grown SO much more as a writer and I am planning to come out with a sequel and have all the chapters written when I do so I can post them like every couple days. I have wrote this book for those of you who cut, are depressed, suicidal, anorexic, or if you just wanna read this to see what it is like becasue I undertsand this stuff. If you guys ever need any help I am here becasue I undertsand and vae been threough things like this myself loves and neevr ever give up becasue evry ingle one of you are beatufil inside and out and NEVER EVER give up becasue us humans, we win at some point even on how strong the voces in our head get, we have to keep fighting becasue something good will come. I had a shit life for 3 years and I met this boy... little do I know that this total stranger would become my bst friend and he saved my life and he is my life and my world and my family and I love him. If you are reading this, you know who you are first bae;) I love you ad than you for saving me. Now loves, never ever give up becasue in the long wrong, something good will come out of it and I have been this way for 3 years and I waited 3 years and well this boy, my best friend , came along and we were strangers at first but he lfiped more whole world upsidown and I still have the most shittiest and hardest days were I wanna do bad things but I don.t becasue I have him. I don't need my razors now becasue he is my new addiction. SO loves if you EVER need anything please message me, I love you all <3