Why? // Bade.

11. Goodbye.

Jade's POV

The biggest lesson I've learned is this:
It's very hard to hide a pregnancy from your boyfriend when you're three months in. I have constant morning sickness, I'm have been eating more than Beck, I won't let him touch me, and I've started to show. Like, a lot more than I thought I would be for three months. I went to the doctors though and she said I was fine.
The only people who know that I'm pregnant is that dude at the store, and Tori. She's actually a big help. I go over to her house all the time to talk and she buys me whatever foods I'm craving, unlike Beck who orders what he wants and tells me to suck it up. If only he knew I couldn't suck the cravings up.
I go for my first ultrasound next week. And for some reason, I'm excited. However, I'm kinda wishing Beck could come with me.

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"Babe?" Beck asks as he enters the trailer. "I think we need to talk."
"About what?" I can hear the panic in my voice. This is his serious voice. Could he have found out? Tori wouldn't say anything, would she?
"You."
Oh crap.
"What do you mean?" I ask. My hands go to my abdomen automatically.
"Look, I might sound paranoid, but I think you're hiding something from me."
Oh shit.
"Why do you think that?" My voice getting louder with each word. "I'm untrustworthy?" But of course, he is right.
"Jade," His voice is loud too. "All you ever do is eat your problems away now! You've been doing it ever since I got back from Texas! I haven't even
touched you for two months! What did you do that week?!"
I was yelling now, "What week?!"
He was yelling too. "The week that you were here by yourself!"
I stared at him, an evil look in my eye.
"Did you cheat on me? What happened?!"
"I DID NOT CHEAT ON YOU BECK!"
"So?! What happened?!" He yells.
"I can't believe you're SO clueless! Beck, I'm always hungry, I'm gaining weight, and I'm always sick. What do you think's different?!"
"I'm confused. What are you saying?" His voice lowering to a small yell.
"How do you not get it yet?!" I yell back at him.
"Get what?!"
"Get that I'm PREGNANT Beck!" I scream.
I just told him. I freaking just told him what I've been trying so hard to hide from him.
I stare at Beck biting my lip. About now, he's supposed to smile and hug me and kiss me. He does the exact opposite.
Beck studies where my hands are and then he stares me in the eyes.
"No," He whispers. "No, no, no! This can't be happening." Beck runs his fingers through his hair, a thing he does when he's stressed.
"It is Beck," I reply. "I'm having a baby."
His face turns from shocked to horrified. This is not going how I planned it would.
"When is the abortion?" He asks.
That's when I start to cry. Beck wants our child dead.
"Abortion?!" I scream. "I'm not having an abortion!"
"Jade, we aren't ready for a baby."
"I'm not killing our child," I shoot back at him. Hopefully that will sting a bit. Maybe he'll reconsider this whole situation.
"It's not our child," Beck says.
"Yes, it's our child! You helped create it!"
"No. No. No!" Beck shouts. "If we have a baby, we can't live in this trailer for free. We won't have free time. What will you do when you're at school? We aren't having a baby Jade."
"Fine."
He lets out a sigh of relief. "Let's go get that abortion now. You'll finally be able to stop vomiting."
"I'm not getting an abortion, Beck."
"But you jus-"
"The baby isn't growing inside of you," I say. "It's different. I feel... Connected to it."
Beck groans. "Jade, you hate kids."
"I don't hate our kid."
"I can't do this," He says. "I don't see how you're ready. I'm not ready to be a father."
"You mean that?" I ask, sniffling.
"Yes," He says sadly. "I don't want a baby."
"Well," I say. "Well, well. I GUESS MY CHILD DOESN'T NEED A DAD!" I shove past Beck and into our bedroom. Behind me, he stands still, shocked and confused. I grab a suitcase and like all my stuff in it. My eyes double check the room to see if I forgot anything. I open up the last drawer and put my shirts in the suitcase. My hands touch something hard, I pull it out.
A positive pregnancy test. My first one I took.
Instead of packing it though, I set it down on the bathroom counter. As a reminder to Beck.
I walk out of the room and drag my suitcase with me. A picture of Beck and I sits on a counter, I flip it down.
"Where are you going?" Beck asks.
I turn around and face him. "I'm leaving. I'm not going to be in a relationship where my boyfriend wants my child dead. So, we're over."
Beck runs his hands through his hair. "Jade, I didn't say-"
"You made your point quite clear. If you're not ready to be a father, don't be one."
With that, I walk outside and slam the door.
"I still love you," I whisper as I grab my cell phone and dial Tori's number.

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Beck's POV

"I'm leaving. I'm not going to be in a relationship where my boyfriend wants my child dead. So, we're over," Jade says.
It happened so fast. Literally ten minutes ago, I was coming back from the park with Jade and asking what she wanted for dinner. Then, I find out she's pregnant.
And she doesn't get it. We're 18 years old. We can't raise a child.
"Jade, I didn't say-"
"You made your point quite clear. If you're not ready to be a father, don't be one."
And then she leaves. Just like that.
I sit down on the couch and put my fave in my hands.
"Stupid baby."
I can feel the tears in my hands. My whole life was centred around Jade. One day, I planned to marry her, and then have kids.
But now, because of the fact that we weren't being careful, my life is ruined. And in months, she's gonna have our child. And I'm gonna be a Dad, a dad that won't be there because Jade won't let me.
I get up and lie down in bed. There, I cry a little more. Something I never do.

Jade and I aren't ready for this.

Or I guess, Jade isn't ready for this.

She's going to loose her mind.

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I wake up in the morning feeling cold. I guess because Jade isn't by my side. Gosh, it's been 12 hours and I'm already a mess.
I go to the bathroom to wash my face and pull myself together. It is Monday after all.
And the worst part of school: Jade's going to be there.
My hand knocks my toothbrush off the counter and I crouch down to get it. Except, it's not my toothbrush. It's a pregnancy test. I turn it over, and look at the sign. Positive.
"Oh gosh...." I whisper. Maybe it didn't sink in completely yet, but it just did. "Jade's pregnant with my child."
I shove the test in my pocket. There is no way that I'll be able to just stand by while Jade has her kid. Our kid.
"Okay Jade, here I come."

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