Why? // Bade.

10. Welcome Home, Kinda.

I didn't call Beck at all this week. He gets back today. For practically this whole week, I've cried because I don't know what to do.
That pregnancy test is still sitting on the counter.
"What time is it?" I get up to check the clock. 12 p.m. Beck gets back at 3. I take a couple deep breaths and grab the test. "Here goes nothing...."
I go into the washroom and pee on the stupid test. Even though I know the answer, I still try.
"One minute to wait...."
I set the test down and go into the shower. I barely fit in there. After scrubbing myself down and doing my hair, I dry off and put some clothes on. Avoiding looking at the test.
"Food..." I mumble to myself. I look through the empty fridge and only see eggs. "You gotta be kidding!" I'm so not in the mood for eggs. "I gotta go shopping." Shopping is not a thing Beck and I do very often. We kinda just steal things from his parents' fridge. But we do have our own credit cards and a shared bank account, so why not? I take a deep breath and head back into the bathroom. I close my eyes and pick up the test. Three, two, one.....
And.....
Positive.
"Why me?!"

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"That comes to.... $22.34."
"Okay, THANKYOU."
"Oh, and um... After buying a jumbo peanut butter, you get a free small vodka."
"Oh thanks," I say. I'm about to take it from him until I remember. Positive. I'm stupidly positive. "I can't though."
"Seriously? What? Are you pregnant or something?! How can a teenager turn down free alcohol??"
"I am actually. If you have to know," I shoot back.
His face falls. "Umm... Congrats I guess."
I give him the money and walk out the door with my groceries. I get into the car and drive home.
"Crap," I say to myself. "Stupid baby!"
The words kinda sting though. I don't know if I should be blaming the morning, or the sickness, on it. "Sorry."
Ugh. It's turning me soft.
I rush home and run to the bathroom, barfing into the toilet. "Yuck, yuck, yuck." I flush the toilet, rinse out my mouth, and grab the groceries.
I grab two graham crackers, smear peanut butter on them, put chocolate and marshmallows on them, and stick it together. It takes me about ten minutes to finish the whole pack.
My alarm goes off on my phone. It's time for me to go and pick up Beck from the airport.
I drive all the way there talking to myself. "It's going to be okay. Beck won't kill you. It's going to be okay. Beck loves you."
I pull up into the airport parking lot and take a few deep breaths. Am I showing yet? I mean, can you tell a girl's pregnant at one and a half months?
Opening the car door, I put a smile on my face. I have to convince Beck that I'm okay. That I'm totally not carrying his.... Child.
The automatic doors slide open and i look up at the luggage pickup centres. I see Cat, Andre, Robbie, and Sikowitz. No Beck. I look around and catch his black hair at Starbucks. He's spending our money on Starbucks. Great.
I sneak across the airport and creep up behind him.
"Shouldn't that money be going towards buying me some new scissors? The last ones I got are way too dull."
Beck laughs and turns around. He squashes me in a hug and look at me. "I missed you."
"I misse-"
He cuts me off though by kissing me. I kiss him back.
"Umm... Excuse me sir? Your coffee's ready."
Beck and I break apart and I blush probably tomato red. He picks up his coffee and grabs my hand. My other one goes to my stomach. How do I tell him?
"Jade!" Cat says with a smile. "Oh my gosh I missed you!"
For her sake, I let her run up to me and wrap her arms around me. I return the hug though, a rare thing. It feels nice.

On the drive home, Beck talks about all the things he and the group did while I was gone.
"Ya, we were at this party and Cat got drunk. She kissed Robbie. They're together now."
"Oh."
Man, I wish I could get drunk again. But I won't be consuming alcohol for 9 months. Maybe.
"So..." Beck says fifteen minutes later. "Why didn't you answer any of my calls?"
"I wasn't in the mood," I reply.
"Jade. You gotta be kidding."
"I didn't feel like talking, okay?" I shoot back.
"If you want us to work, you need to try harder in this relationship," Beck says.
Ouch.
"So you think we aren't going to work out?" I was yelling now.
How was it that Beck and I could start fighting in thirty seconds?
"I never said that!"
"Yes, you totally just did!"
"Jade."
"What?!" I yell back at him. "I don't want to talk to you! And by the way, I'm sleeping on the couch tonight!"
Beck and I didn't say a word to each other for the rest of the drive home. Once we got there, I stomped outside and into the trailer.
"Jade!"
I slammed the door behind me. I'm about to sit down but two arms wrap around me. Beck lifts me up into the air and kisses me.
"I'm sorry," He says in between breaths.
"I forgive you."
"Good," He says and kisses me again. "I hate making you mad."
With that, he falls down on the couch and I land on top of him. I kiss him and bite his bottom lip slightly. He licks the bottom of my mouth and I let him.
"Okay, that's enough of that," I say. "I'm gonna go out for a walk or something. You should probably take a nap babe, aren't you tired?"
"Okay."
I rush to the bathroom and grab the pregnancy test before Beck can see it. I stick it in my pocket.
"I'll be back in an hour!"
"Love you."
"Love you too," I reply and walk out the door. I get into the car and start the engine. I'm not going to a random destination.
I'm going to see Tori.

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Tori's POV

Ever since Beck and Jade moved in together, I've had my suspicions. They only grew when she got sick in Texas. So when she showed up on my doorstep just a second ago. I kinda knew what she came here to talk about.
"Jade?"

"Hey, sorry, I need to talk to you. I messed up," She mumbles.
"Talk to me?"
"Ya... Sorry."
"Come in, I guess," I say.
She sits down on my couch and begins to cry. Just like she did last year when she broke up with Beck for the first time.
"Okay, what happened this time?" I ask rubbing her back. She doesn't even move.
"This," She sobs and hands me a white plastic thing.
A positive pregnancy test.
I was right! I knew it!
"Oh."
"What do I do?!"
"Did you tell Beck?" I ask.
"No! I am not telling him!" She sobs back.
"Jade, you can't hide a pregnancy from Beck. He's not dumb. He's going to figure out sooner or later. Especially once you start showing and you have the baby," I say.
"Who says I'm having it?"
"Jade, you can't kill your own child."
"It's not my-"
"Yes, it is. You and Beck made it, so that child is yours."
"Holy shit," She replies and let's out another sob.
"Umm...." I say. "Is there anything you want?"
"Pizza. Canadian pizza."
"That's only made in Canada, Jade."
"No it's not!" She cries. "There's a Canadian food store that delivers called Eh!"
I search it up on my phone and sure enough, she's not lying. While I dial the number and order her a pizza, Jade goes to the washroom to clean herself up.
I wonder how Beck will react to the news. I mean, he loves kids, but having his own at 18? And Jade, she absolutely hates them. So I wonder if she'll just get an abortion right away. But that's just plain cruel.
Jade walks out of the bathroom with her hands on her stomach. I've noticed it's starting to become a habit. She sits down and takes a deep breath.
"Tori, I hate this."
"I know," I reply. "I know."
"But I can't bring myself to have an abortion. Cause I might," She pauses.
"You might?"
"L-love it."

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