The Boy Next Door(A Chris Brown Story)

Chapter 26 Part Two

 Zoe P.O.V 
I woke up in the most terrible mood. I glanced over at the clock to see what time it was,and it was almost ten. Usually, I would have been up by now making X and Bella something to eat, then fixing Chris and I breakfast. We'd probably be seating at the table talking about our plans for today or laughing at the latest drama ,but that was the last thing I wanted to do. I felt like every breath I took would be my last I just wanted to die already. I laid in bed and just closed my eyes until Chris walked into the room. "Good morning my beautiful queen" He said as he plopped down on the bed. How could he be so fucking happy at a time like this. We just lost our daughter not even 48 hours ago and this nigga is just  cheesing as if nothing happen. I didn't say anything I just ignored him and turned my attention back to the tv that was on mute. "How are you feeling " He asked "Im fine" I said wishing he would go away "You sure" He asked "Yes what do you want" I asked getting irritated "I have a surprise for you" He said as he pulled out a pink box with a little blue bow on it from his nightstand draw. "I don't want it" I said folding my arms "You don't even know what it is" He said shaking the box "I don't need to know what it is I don't want it" I said rolling my eyes at the fact he wouldn't leave me alone. As Chris kept begging me to take the box, he touched my stomach and that made me snap. "WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT" I yelled as I pushed his hand away "I SWEAR I CAN'T STAND YOUR YELLOW ASS"I yelled as I pulled the cover back over my stomach. I didn't mean to yell at him I swear I didn't but when he touched my stomach, it made me think of Ariella. He didn't even ask,why I started yelling he just looked at me. He does this weird thing when he knows he did something wrong,and he know what it is he'll squint his eyes look at you and nod  "Im sorry but are you hungry" He asked changing the subject "No"I said while looking down at my hands "Are you sure" He asked again before getting up "NO JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE BEFORE I BREAK YOUR FACE"I yelled "I'll just  put a plate to the side for you" He said as he leaned in for a kiss but I just pushed him away. After he left I just sat in the bed and stared at the wall for almost an hour before getting up. 

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I grabbed the bottle of Brandy that was under the bed, and walked into the bathroom. I sat the bottle on the counter and leaned over the sink. I turned the sink fossett on and splashed cold water on my face. When I looked in the mirror I didn't even recognize myself. I looked like a total different person, around my eyes were dark, my skin was pale and I just looked sick. I opened the bottle of Brandy and took a big gulp of it before I closed it back. As It went down my throat it burnt like hell but it felt so good just to escape the hurt I felt,so I took another big gulp. When I looked into the mirror this time I seen myself holding a beautiful baby girl. "You could of had this if you weren't such a bad mother" The person in the mirror said to me as they played with the baby hand. After that I blacked out every emotion I had inside of me I just let it all out. I picked up the metal trash can and threw it into the mirror and watched as the picture of me holding the baby  shattered into millions of pieces. I knocked everything that was on the bathroom counter off and onto the floor. I then picked up the stool that was under the counter and threw it into the shower door ,and watched as the glass  shattered across the floor. The voices in my head became louder and louder. I couldn't get rid of them "STOP"I yelled as I covered my ears. Since they wouldn't go away I just figured I would drink myself to death. As I stumbled over to the counter to grab the bottle of brandy I noticed spots of blood on the floor. I touched my nose then I looked at my hand it was covered in blood but I didn't care. I grabbed the bottle of Brandy off the counter and took a couple more sips, as I stumbled my way into the stall. I pulled the toilet lid down and sat down on it. I rested my head against the wall and watched as blood hit the floor. My soul was lost I was no longer the Zoella Moenae Carter that I knew. I was someone else I was darker,colder and emotionless. I completely let whatever demon that was after me get a hold of me and it killed me just as much as I killed myself.

Chris P.O.V
I didn't want to fight with Zoe I couldn't fight with Zoe,because I knew she was hurting and the only thing I could do is just be here for her and help in any way possible. When I got to the kitchen I decided to make her a sausage,egg and cheese sandwich on a croissant since that was her favorite. As I got everything out to make it my phone started ringing. I grabbed the remote and turned the tv down then I picked my phone up. To my surprise it was my dad "Hello" I said answering the phone "Hey son I missed you" He said in an excited voice "I missed you too I guess" I said as I turned the stove on "How are you doing" He asked in a curious voice "Im hanging in there how about you" I asked as i placed the sausage in the pan "Oh thats great son but when are you coming to visit your old man" He asked. To be honest I really didn't want a relationship with my father. The relationship that we have now is good enough for me. "You tell me anytime I try to see you,you always have other things to do or make up an excuse not to come" I said as I flipped the sausage over. "What is that supposed to mean"He asked "Its means that before I became Chris Brown the superstar I tried to have a relationship with you but now that Im Chris Brown the superstar all of a sudden you want to have a relationship" I said as I took the sausage out of pan and laid it on the croissant. "I  know son I'm trying to do better you have to believe me, because I want to be part of your life"He said in such a sincere voice. I didn't know what to believe I wanted him here but I didn't want him here. "Im sure you do"I said as I mixed the eggs in the pan. "When am I going to meet Zoe I want to see what she's about"He asked changing the subject. "Mom already approves so their nothing  much you can do or say"I said as I turned the nob on the stove down. As I was talking to my dad I heard a loud banging noise coming from upstairs, it sounded like something broke. What the fuck is that noise I thought to myself. "Dad I will call you back"I said hanging up the phone before he could say anything. After I turned the stove off I ran upstairs to see what the hell was going on. 

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When I got upstairs the first place I checked was Ariella room,to see if Zoe was in there but she wasn't. Then I checked our bedroom but she wasn't in there so I figured she went to the bathroom,because the light was on. I knocked on the door  but she didn't answer "Zoe"I said as I banged on the door but still no answer. I tried twisting the door handle but it was locked. As I looked for the bathroom key to unlock the door, I realized the key  that I was looking for wasn't the rite key. Then I remember that when I changed the bathroom door handle,I put the wrong nob on so I needed a house key to unlock the bathroom door which I couldn't find, so I kicked the bathroom door in. Once the bathroom swung open I was able to get in the bathroom. It looked like a murder scene out of a movie or tv show. The mirror over the sink was broke,the shower door was broke everything that was on the counter was on now the floor. There were spots of blood all over the floor. "ZOE"I yelled but still no answer. I ran into my closet and grabbed my sneakers off the floor and put them on so I wouldn't step on the glass. I looked in her bathroom and she wasn't in there. Then I checked mines and there she was sitting on the toilet slumped over with a half empty bottle of brandy in one hand and a pool of blood next to her foot. "Zoe"I said as I bent down to her level. She didn't say anything now my heart started racing. "Zoe"I said as I moved her hair out of her face to see that she had dried up blood on her face. "Chris"She said as she opened her eyes "Im here baby"I said as I took the bottle of brandy from her "How could you still love me after I killed our child"She said as she whipped her nose with her hand. "You didn't kill Ariella baby everything happens for a reason you have to forgive yourself"I said as I tried to rub her thigh "Don't touch me" She said as she moved my hand away. It broke my heart to see my baby self  destructing in front my eyes. I wanted to cry but I have to stay strong for her. "I love you baby and there's nothing that is ever going to change that we are going to get through this together I promise"I said as I looked Zoe in her eyes "I love you too"She said just before closing her eyes again. I picked her up bridal style and carried her out of the bathroom and laid her on the bed. As I was just about to call the Doctor the door bell rang. "I'll be back"I said before running downstairs to see who was at the door. 

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I looked at the monitor by the door and it was two police officers standing in front of the door. "Can I help you"I asked as soon as I opened the door "Sorry to bother you but we were called because someone said they heard a female scream coming from this house"The officer said as he pulled out his note pad "Well there was no screaming coming from this house you might be mistaken it for someone else house"I said trying to keep my cool "Well there was more than one phone call about the noise and they all said it was coming from this house"The other officer said as he placed his hands on his hips. "Like I said before there was no screaming coming from this house I would know if someone was screaming I live here"I said as I clenched my jaw "Okay sir would It be okay with you if we had a look around to make sure everything was okay"The Officer asked looking past me and into the house so I shut the door behind me.  "You don't have a warrant to search my house so no I will not let you check anything out"I said as I looked at both the officers "What is that on your shirt"The Officer asked looking at Zoe blood on my shirt "It's paint now what the fuck do you want"I asked with no care in the world. They didn't say thing they just both looked at each other. "Since you have nothing to say how about this  whoever called you and told you there was screaming coming from this house fuck them now you guys have a wonderful day and please stop don't be scared to stop by again."I said before closing the door in their face. I swear people call the police on the dumbest shit around here. I really need to get the fuck out this neighborhood before I do something I would regret. Before I went back upstairs I called Dr. Washington  and asked him if he could come stop by and check Zoe out. Then I scrolled through my contacts until I found the Family Emergency Group. After I found the contact I sent everyone a text "Hello everyone Im sending this text out it's about Zoe she is not doing the best with the baby situation and I would like to know if its possible if you all could come by the house tonight and we all talk to her if you cannot make it its okay." A couple minutes after I sent the text out everyone started responding saying that they were coming.  When I got to the bedroom to check on Zoe  she was sitting up in the bed staring at the wall. "How are you feeling"I asked as I sat down on the bed "Do you think if I killed myself this hurt would go away"She asked "Zoe please stop talking like that"I said as I grabbed her hand "Stop acting like you care"She said letting go of my hand "What is that supposed to mean"I asked raising my eyebrow "Oh Mijo this tour and this whole situation with the death of the baby and Zoe  is stressing me out and I don't know what to do"She said mocking me "What are you talking about"I asked "Don't play fucking dumb with me Christopher you know what the fuck I'm talking about, the conversation you and Mijo had around 1 something this morning"She said before whiping the cover back and exposing her legs. Oh shit I thought she was sleep when Mijo and I were talking. "Im sorry Zoe I didn't mean those things I said"I said hoping she could forgive me. "If you didn't mean it you wouldn't have said it"She said before crossing her legs indian style on the bed. "You don't understand all the stress Im going through"I said as I shook my head. "Stress you want to talk about stress Christopher you don't even know what stress is "She said as she sat up on her knees "Look Im really not in the mood to fight with you Zoe"I said as I got up."No"She said before pushing me "Zoe really stop"I said trying to keep my cool. I was trying my hardest not to fight with her,because I knew she was only acting this way because she was hurting,but she was pushing me to that point. "You're not stress Christopher Im fucking stressed"She yelled "I had morning sickness not you, I carried Ariella for almost four months to only find out she's dead not you, I had a man take my daughter away from me not you, I had a connection with her not you"She yelled as she hit me in the chest. I didn't say or do anything I just let her get it out. "You're walking around acting like none of this happen Chris do you not care your daughter is dead"She said as she slapped me across the face. At this point I was done I was going to give her what she wanted from me. "All I fucking hear is I what about how the fuck I feel"I said as I clench my jaw " And are you fucking serious every night and morning I was up with you holding your hair back making sure you were okay"I said as I looked her in the eyes "I canceled shows and interviews just to be by your fucking side"I said as I fought back tears "I had a fucking connection with Ariella too Im her father or did you forget that and just because I couldn't carry her doesn't mean shit I still had a bond with her"I said as I moved closer to her. "If I didn't care about her I would not have spent close to 3 million in that baby room"I said as tears rolled down my face. Once I started I couldn't stop everything I was feeling was just pouring out. I wanted to grab Zoe and tell her that we were going to get through this but I couldn't do it. "The reason I am acting the way I am is because I have to be strong for you"I said as I wiped my tears away but they just kept coming down faster. "I went to doctor visits with your  fucking ass and  I dreamt of giving my baby girl away to the man of her dreams,I wanted Ariella Christina Brown just as much as you did"I said as I pushed her in the corner. For a minute I blacked out "I loved Ariella with every part of me"I said as I looked her in eyes and this time not looking away. "You're acting like your in this shit alone Zoella I lost my fucking daughter too"I yelled as I punched a hole into the wall  "You're not the only one dealing with this shit Im dealing with it too"I yelled at the top of my lungs "I want my fucking daughter back but guess what she's not coming the fuck back Zoe she is  dead and it hurts like hell"I yelled as tears rolled down my face "LET ME GO  XAVIER PLEASE"She cried. When I snapped out of my feelings and thought. I finally came back to reality ,and thats when I realized I had Zoe pinned against the wall and her feet were dangling in the air. When I looked at her she had tears rolling down her face and she looked scared.I didn't know what to say I just let her go and left the room.I couldn't believe I let myself get to that point to make her scream out his name. I promised her that night I would never hurt her and I did. 

Zoe P.O.V
After he left I crawled back into bed and just cried. The whole time I was only thinking of how this whole thing effected me,and not once did I think of how he felt. As I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep but I couldn't, because I kept seeing his face. The way he looked at me felt as if he was digging in my soul he didn't break eye contact with me for one second. Our eyes were locked but I was scared I felt as if I was looking into the  eyes of Xavier and not Chris. The way he was yelling at me made my heart race,the way he balled up his fist and punched a hole in the wall behind me made think of Xavier. And the way he wrapped his hands around my arms and pushed me against the wall  made me think of Xavier. Also every time he yelled he tighten his grip around my arms made me think of Xavier. Everything about that moment made me think of Xavier and I swear I didn't like it at all. As I laid in bed and just faded away in my thoughts there was a knock on the door. "Go away Chris"I said as I pulled the covers over my head. "It's not Chris Its Dr.Washington"Dr.Washington said before opening the door "Come in"I said as I sat up in the bed. "What happen in the bathroom"He asked before sitting down in the chair next to the bed "It's a long story but why are you here"I asked "Chris called me and told me to check on you"He said as he placed his bag on the floor.I should of figured he did this. "How are you feeling"He asked as he looked me up and down "Im fine just sleepy"I said wishing he would go away. "What happen to your hand"He asked "I got cut by a piece of glass"I said  closing my hand fast "Let me wrap that up before it get infected"He said as he went into his bag. As Dr.Washington was cleaning my hand up in walked Chris. He had a red mark on the side of his face but you couldn't see it that well because his ugly beard covered some of it up. We didn't make eye contact not once but I could feel him looking at me. "Im sorry I couldn't make it to the hospital I was away at a conference but did Dr.Rosewell take good care of you"He asked as he finished cleaning my hand up "Yeah he did"I said looking at my hand "That's good and Im so sorry about your lost it broke my heart when I found out"He said as he let my hand go "You don't need to be sorry everything happens for a reason but thank you"Chris said "I know but I was really hoping to attend the awesome baby shower you guys were going to have"He said as a smile came across his face. Having Dr.Washington here made me feel a little better and it took away from the tension between Chris and I. "Take a deep breath hold it then let it out"He asked as he placed his stethoscope on my back so I did as he order. "How are you handling this Chris"He asked as he moved his stethoscope to a different part of my back. "Taking it day by day"He said finally looking at me "That's good I know its hard but trust time will heal the hurt"He said as he moved his stethoscope from my back and placed it on my heart. About  fifteen minutes later Dr.Washington was done giving me my check up. "You can come back in Chris"He said as he put all his equipment back in his bag. "How is she doing" He asked as he sat down on the edge of the bed.“Everything is fine even her purse” Dr.Washington said eyeing Chris. The look on Chris face was something to remember. He doesn’t like anyone looking at my purse or as he calls it “My Pussy” he even has a song for it which I really don’t care for. And he’s just now starting to feel comfortable with Dr.Washington looking. “That's good to know” He said trying not to laugh or smile. “Before I go I have something to discuss with you guys” He said as he placed his bag back on the floor. “What is it” I asked “ To you fill you in Chris  since you weren’t in the room. Zoe and I talked about her drinking and how she was feeling and I suggested that she go to a rehabilitation center  its in Los, Angeles California and she would stay for 3 months” He said as he pulled a brochure out of his bag “They have counseling and other things to help her heal with the process of losing the baby” He said. To be honest nothing was wrong with me and I sure as hell didn’t need counseling or a rehab. “I'm not going "I said crossing my arms “Did you even think about it "Chris asked “Listen I'm not a crack head or an alcoholic I’m fine "I said wishing they would get that through their heads. “Listen you guys talk it over but if you change your mind the number and information is all on the brochure "He said before handing Chris the brochure “We’ll definitely think it over "Chris said before getting up. “Thank you for coming on such short notice "Chris added before shaking Dr.Washington hand “No problem and Zoe take care of yourself "He said before kissing me on the cheek. “I will "I said with a graceful smile. “I’ll walk you out "Chris said as he followed Dr.Washington downstairs. After Chris and Dr.Washington left I decided to go in Ariella's room and take a nap, being in her room made me feel like she was still inside of me.