The Pain We Face

What Am I Five?

*two days later*



I wake up extra early to make breakfast for everyone. I just wanted to thank them for taking such good care of me. I'm sure I've been a handful.

When I wake up it's just starting to get light out. The sky outside is just a hint of red. What's that saying? Oh yeah 'red skies at night sailors delight, red skies in mourn' sailors be warn.' But there will be no sailing today, so I'm sure we'll be just fine. I smile a little remembering that saying. I used to use it all the time, when my mom, brother, and I went up to Michigan to visit our cousins. They had a small beach cottage on the lake, so they had a private beach. I wonder if my cousins are still alive.

'Ok, ok, that's enough thinking. It's time to get up.' I tell myself. I slowly get out of bed, trying my best not to wake Carl. He's laying on his stomach with his mouth slightly open. He's so cute when he sleeps.

I don't feel like putting on pants so I just keep on the pink fuzzy pajama pants that Carl found, a few months ago, on a run.

I grab his black hoodie on the way out, and slip it over my head. I almost walk in to a wall in the process. I silently laugh at myself and walk to the kitchen.

I open a brown box that says 'breakfast' in bold blocky letters. It's still pretty full. About a month ago Carl and Daryl found an over run camp. It must have been over run for a while, because there was tons and tons of supplies there. We totally hit the jackpot, but it was really risky.

I grab the instant oat meal, and the powdered eggs, along with two pans and some other stuff.

When I walk out the door, the cold air rushes to greet me.

The fire is just a little glowing ember in the pit of all the burned wood. I put all the breakfast stuff down and walk around to the side of the house. I grab a few pieces of wood and carry them back to the fire pit. I do that for a couple minutes until I have a nice fire going.

The sun is almost all the way up. I take my time making the breakfast, because I want it to be perfect for everyone. Just as I'm about done Carl walks out sleepily. He looks a little shocked that I'm out here so early.

"Hey baby." He says pulling me in to a hug, and kissing my cheek.

"Hey." I say hugging back.

He lets me go and sits in a plastic green chair behind me.

"Why are you up so early?" He asks sleepily. God his sleepy voice is sexy!

"I wanted to make breakfast for everyone. Because you've all been amazing to me." I say, finishing up the oat meal.

"You're perfect." He says.

"haha, i wish. but can you go tell everyone that breakfast is ready?" I ask.

He nods his head and walks inside.

I wait for a few minutes but eventually everyone is outside. They all get their breakfast and sit around the glowing fire.

Everyone says that it's really good, but I highly doubt it.

I eat my food slowly, if I eat to fast I start to feel sick.

Carl and I sit next to each other, with Daryl on the other side of me. They always make me feel so safe.

"It was really nice of you to do this." Julia says flashing me a smile.

"No problem. Everyone has done so much for me, I just thought I would do something for you guys." I say blushing a little.

"Aw that's so cute." Daryl says poking my arm.

"Oh shut up." I joke.

"But wittle Nikki wanted to be the angel child." He says making puppy dog eyes.

I roll my eyes and continue eating quietly. Carl makes me eat all my food, even though I'm not hungry.

Once everyone is done I offer to help clean the dishes, but everyone says that I should go rest.

"But that's boring!" I whine.

"Too bad. Go play a board game or something." Julia says matter-of-factly.

I sigh as I stand up. As soon as I know they can't hear me I mutter "what am I five?" And then I decide that I feel like acting like I'm five. So I storm off to go find a board game.


~~~authors note~~~

It's really late and I've been crying all day so I thought I'd put up another chapter. Idek. Thanks you to all my readers. Enjoy! :*