Nightmare

life

Life is honestly getting harder and harder without school. At school, I could see my girlfriend every day. On summer vacation, I can't. I just want to cry and wave a magic wand that'll make it better. I still have online classes that I don't want to take. I'm having a minor break down while writing this....
I'm not letting go, I refuse to let go. But who knew the world could be so dark and terrible? I mean, there are so many things that could go wrong, that have gone wrong. I don't mean for this to be emotional, but lately, when I start writing things, I can't stop until I've finished. Sometimes I wish I could take my girlfriend and dissappear to a remote location where no one can find us. Heck, even just being with her right now would be good. She's in need, I'm in need. We help eachother, but it's hard when we can't speak to eachother. No one in my family ever cares about me. As soon as I turn 18, I'm cutting all ties with them unless they prove me wrong. They're emotionally abusive at times. I want things to change. I don't want to be with my family at the moment. My mum has become a helicopter mum and I hate it, but can't do anything to change it. I have so many wishes that I wish could come true.
* sigh * if only....
Life seems so dramatic right now. I know I can handle it with my girlfriend by my side. Not to mention, some of my friends. I just wish that sometimes, someone will actually listen to me. Is it just me or am I invisible sometimes?
I'm having a life crisis. And idk how to solve it. I....
I've run out of things to say
Ciao