Nightmare

depression

It's taking a lot out of me to write this....my best friend got pissed at me today and she wrote me a note saying goodbye and she left me.....I guess that I deserved it because one of my other friends was gossiping about her to me behind her back and I didn't stop it....I didn't mean for this to happen.

Right now I'm not sure I'll make it to see 16, much less 18, but I'm trying....I'm trying with every fiber of my being not to harm and I'm experiencing sever depersonalization and I can't get help because my parents won't believe me....I love you guys and if any of you ever feel like this, please talk to me, and please try to get help...