Shameless Love - Park Chanyeol

5

Emma

- Sunday November 20th

Today is my day off from my shift at the restaurant, so I decided to drive over to the retirement home, feeling like shit that I haven't had the chance to see my grandmother all last week from my big transition to high school. Since school is now my number one priority, it makes me sad that the visits with my grandmother are just now on weekends. Missed her like crazy.

When parking my car in the parking lot of the retirement home, I noticed a vehicle that looked very familiar, coming to my senses that.. Aunt Charlotte came to visit my grandmother too. "That's just great." those words released from my mouth in a sarcastic tone.

Aunt Charlotte is my mother's big sister, she is very pretty but she can be selfish and rude at times, which those actions are mostly towards me. Whenever she sees my presence, she'll mostly ignores that I'm here since she still thinks I'm a little child. Or she would make me babysit her 4 year old boy Ryder just so she could get me out of her sight. People in the whole family notice that as well thinking the theory to why she does that only to me is because my appearance probably reminds her of my mother. She was really close with her and doesn't want to be reminded how much she's missed her whenever I visit.

When walking through the entrance of the retirement home, Linda notices me with a big grin placed on her face as she says "Why hello Emma, your grandmother told me that you started high school. How are you doing?" feeling very excited for me since she knows that I've been homeschooled my whole life.

"I-it's been alright." stuttering still having second thoughts that I shouldn't have attended high school. In order to not show it, my face appears a small grin indicating that I'm fine. When my signature was placed on the sign-in sheet, she made a call, talked, and ended but first she said to let me know "She's ready but I hope you don't mind that she already has company, you're okay with that right?" Instantly thinking it's Aunt Charlotte, nodding in response as I walk through the entrance to the visitors room, my eyes skimmed around trying to find my grandmother until my eyes noticed her from a far again at the table next to the window with Aunt Charlotte across from her and Ryder sitting on her lap.

While walking over to them, Aunt Charlotte noticed my presence when she looked up since I'm in her direction to look, she says in no emotion in her tone "Hey." then looks out the window. With the result of rolling my eyes that she actually acts like this, even right in front of her mom. My grandmother turned around, when she saw that it was me, she gasped and her award-winning smile placed on her face as she slowly got up to give me a warm embrace while saying "Awh my beautiful granddaughter is back! Aw I've missed seeing this beauty everyday." which made me smile but sadden in the inside, still feeling like shit not visiting as often as I used to. While we were in an embrace, in the corner of my eye, I noticed Aunt Charlotte roll her eyes while she was still looking out the window. She's so immature to be an adult, it's so stupid.

When we released, my grandmother asked "Hey why don't you grab the chair behind you and join us?" as I was about to grab the chair, Aunt Charlotte chimes in to say immediately to her mother "Mom she can't, she has to babysit Ryder." I fucking knew it. She then looks towards my direction giving me a look, signaling to say something as the words came out of my mouth "Oh uh yeah right. I totally forgot. I'm sorry grandma, but I'll visit really soon. I promise." giving her a light hug on the back just so she she doesn't have to struggle getting up again. The feeling in my gut when seeing my grandmother having a disappointed look on her face, it just hurt.

Then Ryder walked next to me with the brightest smile he can possibly do saying while looking up at me since I'm taller than him by a lot "Hi Emma!" while a smile placed on my face from the cuteness of his voice, kneeling down to his level, I replied "Why hello Ryder! Do you want to go to your favorite park with me?" His face lit up as he nod excitedly. Which makes me shag his curly hair a little bit saying while I'm back at standing position "C'mon let's go then!" his little hand grabs mine as we both exit the retirement home and walk out to the parking lot to my car. Then it came to mind that one of his car seats is still in my car so I'm good.