Im So Over It

Come on

"Your stupid if you don't go" Jack tells me "I know but I'm scared" I answer "why?" he asks. "Because I'm not as good as them"i sigh . "What if I come with you?" he asks pulling my chin up "really" I reply . "Of course" he answered. "Okay" I squealed and jumped on to him for a hug.

Three days later it was the day of the convention / award show. I found it really hard to decide what to wear but I eventually settled for a tight, short mint green dress and nude coloured heels. High but sophisticated at the same time. For my hair I braided it at the top so it spun round and then I scrunched it up in to a messy bun to finish it. My makeup was very natural, nude lipstick, pink blush and a brown smoky eye and I was done . I looked into the mirror and I really liked how I looked. I looked chic and sophisticated but still edgy and indie. I sprayed on my favourite perfume , grabbed my nude coloured clutch all in time before the door knocks. "Prince Charming here to take Cinderella to the ball"Jack jokes. "Haha shut up you goon" I laugh as I open the door. Jacks jaw drops . "Wow" he breaths "thankyou, you look pretty dapper yourself to" I complement him. Jack was wearing a navy blue tux , with a light purple shirt underneath. I wasn't lying when I said he looked good. "Why thankyou, now madam " he laughs as he places his hand for me to hold. "Why yes sir !" I laugh back putting my hand on his an walking out.

When we arrive I'm starstruck .Famous writers and poets every where around me. It was like a dream come true. I know I sound very geeky but everyone has different dreams. Me and Jack sit on a table filled with some of my old time favourite writers. I speak to them and they gave me advice and tips on how to improve . To me this is like your favourite actor teaching you how to act. The award show begins , with poets an writers going up reviving their awards and giving a speech. With the occasional funny one saying a joke to make us all laugh. The award show was coming to an end , they bought out some heavenly cheesecake that gave you a mini orgasm in your mouth. "Okay and finally for our last award. There are many fantastic writers, poets and literature gods out there but these people all started off somewhere. This award is to honour a passionate literature fan. This award is for someone who has a great love and true understanding for the English language . This award is to recognise someone with lots of potential. "the man on stage says. I look at Jack who seems to be having a great time eating his cheescake. "You alright" I ask "yeaa" he manages to mumble with his mouth full. I laugh "It's really good cheesecake "he laughs aswell. "so I have the great privilege to give this award to Miss Kendall Sugg , a Oxford university Bachelor of Arts student studying English Language and Literature" he adds. Did he just say my name , what is going on! Jack chokes on his cheesecake and stares at me shocked. "What I didn't even enter" I hesitate . "Shut up that's not important you just won"Jack fusses as he stands up pulling me up with him. He straightens out my dress, fiddles with my hair putting a small strand behind my ear. He then gives me a peck on the cheek and pushes me towards the stage. As I turn around I now notice my professor standing on stage . I walk up the to the platform shake his hands as he gives me my award and go up to hug my teacher. "I never entered?" I asked him "I saw more potential in you then you did in your self" he smiled back at me. "Would you like to give a speech "the man whispered to me. I nodded my head and went up to the podium. Everyone else had time to prepare a speech but I didn't , I was just going to wing it. I clear my throat and begin "um receiving this award has come as a complete shock to me.I have never seen or felt the potential that my professor speaks about. All through my life people have doubted me academically . I was never the smartest person in school and this is why I was predicated never to pass my exams. I showed them wrong by succeeding in my exams. I rubbed it in there faces when I got the highest A level grades in the whole school. I shoved it in their faces when I got into Oxford . Now this , now this is like a big fat kick in the face to all those who doubted me !" I say raising the award up in to the air. Everyone applauds me with a couple people standing up out of their chairs. I couldn't help but smile. this was another time when you just need to step back and take it all in what just happened. Theese things don't usually happen in life they only happen in movies . There where lots of people staring at me through that speech but there was only one person I kept my gaze on. It was Jack , the way he was smiling at me made more calm than ever before. I walk off stage only to be captured by Jacks big tight hug that lifts me off the ground . He spins me around and whispers "I'm so proud off you " in my ear. "It's so unreal" I mumble as he puts me down. I look at him with his huge grin on his face. "Well done" a random person came up to me and congratulated . Then loads of people came up to congratulate me. I was overwhelmed but keeping me calm was jack who wasn't letting go of his grip. "Well done, I really like seeing such passion and talent in someone such young"someone said to me. I recognized the voice from somewhere . I turn around only to see my all time favourite writer there. "oh my god you are my favorite writer" I mumble to her "thankyou" she smiles back. "You'll go far" she adds and walks away. I turn to look at Jack with my jaw dropped. Hes more shocked than "I am really in the mood for a big mac" I tell him ."Same here , come on let's go before you become to famous to go there" he winks at me."Shutup" I laugh at him.

Me and Jack walk to the closet mcdonalds. As we enter we get a lot of stares from everyone . this is because I am in a dress and heels and Jack is in a tux . "Where a tad over dressed " Jack whispers as he leans closer to me. "haha just a tad" I laugh. I walk over and sit in a booth while Jack orders . He comes back and hands me my burger. "So good" I mumble "McDonald's can never fail" he adds. "Shit Kendall where's your award" Jack asks "what , fuck Jack where" I begin to panic. "Look calm we will figure it out, where did you last have it" Jack try's to calm me . "I dunno ja-" I begin to say but get interrupted by a knocking on the window. I look out its my favourite writer . "Kendall look what she's holding" Jack tells me excitedly . "Oh my god"I say as I look to see her holding my award. She smiles and walks in. "You forgot something" she tells me as she places the award In front of me. "Uh-uh-tha-" I mumble "thankyou" Jack interrupts "but how did you know I would be here?" I ask her. "Like I said I see a lot of me in you and when I won this award this is exactly where I came" she smiles. "Look well I have got to go " she tells us "thank-you very much " I thank her and she leaves. "Did that just happen" I ask stars truck "yes !!" Jack squeals . "OMG I have to tell Finn" I say as I get my phone and dial his number. I wait until he answers . "Hey Finn " I say "hello" he replies bluntly . "Um I just wanted to tell you I got the award for young writer of the year" I tell him "yeah coool, um look sorry I'm busy I got to go, bye." he says and hangs up. What the fuck I can't believe that . Jack notices how shocked I look. "Are you okay?"he asks. I just nod and stand up "come on let's walk" .

It was a cold night in london. Me and Jack were taking a stroll in the park. "What did Finn say to you?"Jack asks like it has been on his mind. "Nothing" I tell him "no Kendall tell me" he snaps "No jack honestly he said nothing , that's why I'm upset because he said nothing " I tell him trying not to cry. "Oh Kenny " he sympathises as he pulls me in for a hug. "Your freezing "he tells me as he takes of his jacket and puts it over me. I smile at him and we carry on walking . Every time a cold wind hit us I would snuggle up closer to Jack. When we finally arrived outside my flat I took of Jacks jacket and handed it over to him . He took it off me and stated into my eyes . "Thankyou for coming with me" I say "my pleasure " he tells me not taking his gaze off me. He leans in closer , are we going to kiss ? He leans in even closer and gives me a kiss on the cheek. "Goodnight" he whispers in to my ear making me smile.