Im So Over It

SUPRISE SUPRISE

It has been days since what happened with Jack. We haven't talked at all. Today Finn was coming back, I was exited but Jack was constantly on the back of my mind. Zoe picked me up and we went to Finn and Jacks house. When we arrived everyone was already there . Mrs harries had decorated the whole house with welcome home Finn signs. Emmy had baked cupcakes and Jack was at the airport picking up Finn. I walked over and started talking to caspar. A short while after Jacks car pulled up in to the drive. Everyone became really excited , so was I but maybe for the wrong twin. As they walked in Finn was first followed by Jack. Mrs Harries ran over to Finn and gave him a huge hug. Finn looked over at me and gave me a wink , I smiled but my gaze shortly went to Jack. who was awkwardly standing there with his hands in his pockets . We made eye contact but he quickly broke it. Everyone greeted Finn. I walked over to the table to get a drink . "Did you miss me" someone said as they put their arms around my waist. I look over my shoulders to see it was Finn. "Of course" I smiled and turned around. "How was Canada " I asked looking past his shoulders. I see Jack walking away and going upstairs . "Um I got to go Finn" I say and follow Jack upstairs . I follow him into his bedroom. As I walk in I see Jack sitting on his bed with his head in his hands. I walk over and sit next to him. "I'm sorry" he apologises but not looking up. "Jack" I sigh tugging at his hands away from his face. "Please don't tell Finn we kissed " Jack begs . "YOU KISSED HER!" someone shouts . We turn around to see Finn "Finn it's not what you think" I plea "what your lips accidentally touched" he says angrliy. "I can't believe I though you would wait for me" he carrys on. Finn begins to leave "Finn wait" Jack jumps up to try and stop him. "No you know what Jack it's nothing new whatever Jack wants Jack will get" he shouts at him and pushes him away . "I NEVER WANT TO SEE ANY OF YOU AGAIN, YOUR DEAD TO ME"he shouts and leaves. "IT MENT NOTHING"Jack shouted back . That was like a big stab in my chest

"Kendall" Jack shouts running after me. "I fucked up , I thought he didn't care" I cry "Kendall everyone makes mistakes"Jack try's to calm me down ."I just made a big one" I carry on walking . you know when you hear something and you can actually feel a pain in your heart . Well that's me , I quickly become faint and my legs were going to collapse. I just wanted to fall to the ground and cry . Before I reach the ground someone picks me up from behind . "No, no come on "they say lifting me up. I turn around and see its Zoe I look at her hopelessly wanting to burst out crying. "Come on babe" she says softly leading me to the car. "Hang on , hang on"Zoe says pulling out of the parking space. "okay now you can" she tells me when we are gone past the harries house and I burst out crying. Zoe kept driving as I was crying. She didn't say anything because she knew that's what I wanted . Sometime someone needs to cry and you just have to let them . I soon figured out where Zoe was driving me to. Home. "Why?" I asked her , Zoe paused but then replied "your mum made me promise that if your ever down that I bring you home because no one should cry not in their mothers arm" . Soon later we arrive at my house. Zoe knocks the front door and helps me there. Mum opens the door and greets me with a big hug. As soon as she hugged me I started crying even more than before. "Oh honey " mum calms me as she leads me to the living room . "Hello sweetheart" mum says to Zoe . "hey , I'm going to go upstairs and play with bella" Zoe says and leaves. "Alright well you gonna tell mummy what has happened?" mum asks. I get myself together and explain to her everything from Finn to Jack."Oh baby I wish you weren't hurting , as a mother you try and protect your children from everything you possibly can. But heartbreak just isn't one of them" she plays with my hair. "I think this Finn hes hurting as well , just give him some time" she adds. "It's so stupid mum I like him, like really like him. Urgh why am I crying , I'm such a weakling!" I say drying my eyes. "No your not crying is just a physical way for saying you have had enough" mum calms me. "mum" I plea "if it was ment to be it will be"she adds.

I wake up a while later. As I get up from the sofa I see its dark outside. My neck is stiff and it hurts. Blinking has become painful because of my dry eyes due to crying . I feel so much pain, like I'm so empty and hopeless . I can't decide what's hurting me more , Finn or Jack saying the kiss meant nothing. I reach out and grab my phone. I have loads of notifications .

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Jack Harries
Text:Are you okay ??xxx*

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Zoe Sugg
Text: Hey babey, I left ages ago your fast asleep. Text me when your awake, I love you loads and I can't stand seeing you hurt . xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx*

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Jack Harries
Text:Kendall reply please !xxxx*

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Jack Harries
Text:Answer my calls*

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Jack Harries
Text:just tell me your okay *

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Jack Harries
Text:Reply please !!xxx*

*To:Kendall Sugg
From:Jack Harries
Text:Zoe told me your at your parents, just reply when your better xxxxx*

I kept scrolling through hoping for a text from Finn but there were none. I felt really bad for Jack but I couldn't even think of anything to say to him. My brain was just overpacked with Finn. I manage to drag myself of the sofa and wobble into the kitchen . I walk in and my whole family are there. They all have sympathetic looks on their faces. Great, that's the last thing I need.