Im So Over It

Charity

I stayed up all night thinking of everything. Why did Finn not even give a fuck , why have I slowly started not missing him? Why was I expecting Jack to kiss me last night? and why was I even prepared to kiss him back! My mind was swirling everywhere when my phone rang. I drag myself out of bed and look at the caller ID. It was Jack "Yo what's up " I answer . "Morning happy chappy , how are you" "I'm good how are you" I say . "Good okay I'm calling because me and mum are going to this children hospice today .We go every year and just spend sometime with them, and so I was wondering if you wanted to come?" Jack asks. "Sure " I tell him "okay good, we will pick you up in about 1 hour" jacks says and we hang up. I shower as fast as I can and get dressed. Light blue skinny jeans with my cream knitted jumper and my cream converses. I dry my hair and put it in a pony tail. I don't put on any makeup apart from some lip balm because of my dry lips. Jack texts me that they are downstairs and I leave. "Hey" Jack says as he gives me a hug "hello " I smile at him and follow him into the car. "Hello sweeetheart" mrs harries says "hello " I reply. We all talk on the way to the hospice and mrs harries even congratulates me on my award .

Once we arrive we have to sign a lot of paperwork , we then get passes and are free to walk around. Mrs harries leaves to do important work whilst me and Jack start speaking to the little children. It was so cute how Jack was with them "you would be a great dad one day"i tell him as we get coffee and he sits on the window sill . "Really" Jack laughs. "You wouldn't be to bad yourself " he teases "shutup" I laugh "oi don't say words like that near the children " he makes me laugh even more. I shove him and so he shoves me back. "Uh woah what did you just hit a girl "I joke . Jack puts his legs behind mine and pulls me closer to him. "So what if I did " he laughs . "Your so annoying " I giggle "annoying is my middle name " he winks.

After we finish our little break we he'd back over to the children . "Hi guys my names Jack and this is billy bob joe" he points to me making them all giggle . "Silly you forgot your name was Jane" I say to Jack making them laugh even more. We sit down with them and play a game of chess . "Is she your girlfriend" a little girl asked Jack. He looked at me and smiled "No "he laughed "Do you want her to be?" She added. Jack didn't answer he looked to me then to the little girl and then to the floor. "I'm going to get some ice cream " he changes the subject. He walks off and I can't stop looking at him. "Why didn't he say no" the little boy reads out my mind. "I don't know" I sigh "he's a bit shy " I try to lighten the mood. Me and the little kids carry on playing. Jack walks back over with a big tub of ice cream and lots of spoons. He gives all of us a spoon each and opens the tub of ice cream .They all dive in and I look at Jack who was trying to avoid my eye contact. When it was time to leave the kids gave us hugs and thanked us. One of the boys whispered something into jacks ear making him smile and look at me. Mrs Harries came in and met us and we all went in to the car.

Mrs Harries dropped me off at my accommodation ."Thankyou very much " I thank her "no no thankyou" she insists . "Mum I'm going to spend some time with Kendall, I'll be home later" Jack tells his mum as I'm about to get out . He looks over his shoulders to see if I was okay with it and I just smiled. We walk in to my room silently."Wanna watch a movie ?"I ask "Ill order pizza" Jack adds "pepperoni please" I ask "okay" he laughs. Jack orders the pizza and I put on Marley and Me. I get some blankets and some fluffy pillows and chuck them on the bed. Once the pizza arrives me and Jack cuddle as we watch and eat. Half way through the film I notice Jack hesitating . I look up at him "I need to explain why I didn't answer that boys question"Jack bursts out . I look away but then back at him "no , no Jack I don't want you to explain" I say to him. He looks confused and turns his head away. "Jack" I whisper and turn his head back around to face me. He looks me in the eyes then plays with my hair .We slowly begin to to get closer until his lips were toughing mine. We begin to kiss and it was like medicine for someone who has been ill for a long time . I slowly pull away . Jack looks shocked "I'm sorry"Jack mumbles as he gets up and leaves . "Jack no, wait " I stand up making the pizza fall all over the ground. I was to late he had already gone. Fuck.