Calzona - Together Again

Chapter Ten

- Mark -

That morning, I wake up with Arizona in my arms. It reminded me of when I would hug my little sister after break ups. Arizona was spectacular. I knew I wasn't the only one comforting the other. She was comforting me too. I haven't gotten over Lexie or Derek. She hasn't gotten over her leg, Callie, or her brother. It's sort of like fate sent us to each other for comfort.
I slip her further down in the covers and cover her up as I go into the kitchen. I'm not surprised when there isn't anything in the fridge - nobody had lived here since Ari and Callie had moved into the house.
I go into my kitchen to get eggs, water, and bacon. I decide to take a shower before I head back.
Getting in the shower, I wash my hair with axe men's shampoo and axe men's body wash. Getting out, I dry myself off and slip into a pair of skinny jeans and a grey tight fitted shirt I tucked into my pants.
Lastly, I spray on axe cologne and fix my hair to make it perfect
Oh wait
It's always perfect.
Smiling at my complexion, I put on a confident smile and go into my kitchen, looking for ingredients. Finding nothing in my own kitchen, I swing my "man purse" over my shoulder and go out, heading to Starbucks for coffee and breakfast for me and my best friend.

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- Arizona -

I wake up in a drenched face from my crying. Mark's comforting body was gone, and the bed was cold and lonely.
I get out of bed. Callie's words flow through my head like a repeat tape.
Rubbing my eyes, I stand up from my old hospital bed, dizzy and lightheaded.
I walk through the kitchen feeling empty.
My eyes advert to the knives we kept up high so Sofia didn't get to them. I was numb. I wonder... If I could feel something. After everything with Callie, I was numb. Empty. Thing after things after thing.

My brother dies.
Nicole cheats on me.
I move to Seattle
Falling for Callie
Breaking up with Callie
Getting with Callie
I go to Africa
Breaking up with Callie
Going back.
Callie doesn't take me back.
Callie is pregnant
Callie takes me back
Plane crash.
Lost a leg.
Callie bullies me
Callie doesn't understand
I sleep with another woman
Callie doesn't understand
We go to marriage counseling
I love Callie
Callie wants a divorce.
Callie meets Penny
Callie falls for Penny
Custody battle.
Callie let's them say evil things about me
I win sole custody.
I Decide to share custody with Callie
I let Callie take Sofia
Callie is cheated on

Everything on top of everything.
It was too much.
I have had enough.
I needed to feel something.
I get on my tippy toes and open the cabinet where we keep the knives. I pull out a sharp, pointed blade.
I take the sharp blade and slowly, slowly drag it across my wrist.
Crumbling against the kitchen wall, tears spilling over, I slowly slash another line. And another. Each time getting deeper. Each time more blood flowing. So much red. So much blood.
I am sobbing loud, chocking sounds. Tears are streaming out of my tear ducts like fountains.
I slowly cut another slash through my skin.
Finally, I was feeling something.