True Love - Jelena

24.

Selena

I've been in the hospital for almost 2 months recovering from my rib damage. Justin had been by my side every second he could. At times he wouldn't even go home to shower just in case I needed something. I just appreciated he was as loving as he was. Because if roles were reversed I would've done the same for him. Today though I could finally go home. The doctors had taken off my brace and I felt so free. Well not completely because Justin keeps treating me like a freaking child. Not complaining though. He had finally taken a shower, of course in the hospital room as he refused to go home. 

"Please baby, I know you just got the brace off a week ago but don't rush into it okay?"he said helping me out of bed.

I pulled my hair in a ponytail sighing.

"Alright, fine. I'll take it easy," I said kissing his lips.

He smiled grabbing the duffle bag that was full of my clothes. With his free arm, he took my arm and went to the front of the hospital to sign papers.

"I'll be right back, Go rest yourself on one of the waiting chairs," he said kissing my forehead.

"But I've been resting all day, nope correction these past months Justin," I said.

"Just go," he said walking over to the front desk.

I walked over to a chair slowly sitting in it. I look over to the side and see a woman with her baby. I stared in awe as she smiled down at the child making the child smile. That could have been with me with my little one.

The women had caught me staring and I cleared my throat.

"I'm sorry, it's just you have a beautiful baby," I said a little embarrassed.

She smiled turning her body to me.

"Would you like to hold him?" She said.

I nodded quickly, too excited to say anything. She slowly handed him to me and told me the proper way of holding the little bean in my hands. Yes a bean, he was just a little bean. As I stared into his little blue eyes I fell in love. He was just so precious.

"What's his name?" I said looking up at her.

"Anthony."

I looked down at little Anthony laughing.

"H-hi Anthony," I said letting him grab his whole hand around my pointer finger.

A small smile showed on little Anthony's face making me melt. My eyes had gotten watery as I stared at Anthony. I could've held my little baby just like this.

I felt the woman's hand on my shoulder as she comforted me.

"Honey, What's wrong?" She asked.

Tears fell as I thought about it. I cleared my throat not looking away from Anthony.

"Um, I was pregnant."

"Reall-, wait what do you mean by "was"," she questioned.

"You could say I had a miscarriage," I said biting my lip.

"I am so sorry," she said side hugging me.

I just nodded not wanting to hear that again. Every doctor had been telling me that for the past months. I didn't even want to hear what the rest of the world had to say.

I hear someone's throat clear and look up to see Justin.

"I'm sorry to intrude but we're all set to go Sel," he said showing me papers.

I nodded slowly looking down at Anthony. He had peacefully fallen asleep in my arms. I kissed his little cheek before turning to the woman handing her child back. She put Anthony in his stroller before giving me a big hug.

"Don't you worry, that baby of yours is going to always be with you. But who knows maybe you will have another little one in the near future," She whispered to me.

"I know, Thank you and I hope so," I said.

She slowly released me from our hug letting me connect hands with Justin. Justin and I waved goodbye making our way to the front sliding doors but were instantly hit with flashing lights. The paparazzi. I put my hoodie over my head following Justin. Justin's security guard had led us to an all-blacked-out Cadillac. 

Things were yelled out at us such as:

"Are you pregnant Sel!"

"Who's the father?"

"I hope she is not, It would ruin her body!''

"Doesn't look like she is!?"

"Why were you in there so long!"

I kept my head down almost on the verge of tears at all the comments being said. Finally, as Justin and I were in the car I just let my emotions out. Even through the car the flashes of cameras shined through. Justin had let me cry on his lap as he comforted me the best he could. 

The drive home was quiet. Every time I looked at Justin it seemed as if he wanted to ask me about the situation at the hospital but would hold back sighing.

"W-Who was that woman?"

I jumped a little at his voice before answering.

"Um, I didn't exactly catch her name but she had a 2-month-old son named Anthony," I said.

"Oh," Was all Justin had said.

As we got to my parent's house Justin got my bag from the trunk following me up the steps. As I went to the front door I froze. A small note was by the handle of the door. I grabbed it walking inside sitting on the couch as slowly as I possibly could. Justin closes the door before taking my stuff up to my room.

The note was folded and a name was on it. Kian's.

It read;

"Selena,

By the time you get this, you'll probably be out of the hospital doing a lot better. I have no words for how sorry I am. I just got mad at the fact that you were having a child with another man that wasn't me. I always dreamed of us having kids and being a family. That's why I went to your house that night. To tell you how I felt. But the jealousy had got to me and I did what I did. Nothing in this world can fix what I had done to you, Justin, and most importantly your child. I can't deal with this. The guilt is eating me alive. So here I am saying that you will NEVER see me again. And by that, I mean that I have decided to end my life. Life was just not worth living after this. Again by the time you get this, I will be dead. I am very sorry Selena. I will always love you. So don't worry or cry over my death be happy with Justin. After all, that's all I wanted for you. Happiness. Don't worry I'll take care of your little angel. Me and your child will look after both of you.

Love,

Kian"

"Kian's dead?" I whispered.